Life Lessons

I hear it calling me.
I try hard to ignore the ringing.
I look and see that the ID is one I have no desire to have contact with.
I allow the voice mail to catch.
In a few moments I pick it up,
I dial a number.
I dont even listen to it.
I just erase the message with no regard to what he may have to say.
Months ago he wrecked my heart.
Turned me to stone.
I allow none to penetrate the brick wall I have constructed.
I hear it ring again.
This time I pick it up and slam it shut.
Hopefully he gets the point.
I feel a stab deep in my chest.
I see a thousand memories race threw my mind.
I hear a million lies I bought for truth.
I hear the words she said and things she called me.
I taste those same tears wishing I was gone.
To this day I regret the better part of if not all of four years.
At 22 I began a life as an adult alone for the first time.
Pour my soul into others and things.
Live for a creature who soon also leaves me broken hearted.
This time unwillingly.
Never meaning to hurt me.
Telling myself he was my fault.
At 23 I am now learning to erase the past.
Ever learning to take the lessons and leave the pain.