uggh

Old hysteria sets in so easy with me. Its a dark day with lots of clouds. The chance of rain impending. I dont know why I do it. I can get opinions from Kevin, April, Hope and Kristy all day but never really know why. I read something earlier that put some fear into me. Im worried I took actions to save something precious too late. I have the worst timing in the entire world. I took actions to prevent something from hurting me and someone else. I fear though that with what I read earlier I was too late. But I really dont know. I just know I am worried about it. I dont care how vague I am being. I know what I am talking about and thats what really matters right? God help me out here. Im just about to the part where I drive myself insane.....