Life comes back to bite your ass doesnt it Toby...

I am mean. I talked to Chana earlier. She was telling me that she crashed her car. Poor thing. Luckily the insurance picked it up. Well anyways heres why Im mean. She was telling me how the girls were doing. We made an agreement a while back, no news about Toby. Ever. Well she told me that he and the bitch broke up. I laughed so hard. Mean huh. Guess its a good thing I left. Im gonna crack up if he tries to call Kristy. Theres no way he can contact me unless he calls my family or her. Then again Chana has my number. But she wouldnt give it to him if he begged. So Im not really worried. As much as I know it is wrong, I am happy he got what he deserved. I hope he learned a lesson. I hope he is hurting. I hope he realizes that he missed out and will never get back what I was once willing to freely give. My love is never again up for sale. Not for him. I dont even know that I would be nice if he was to call me. I would probably be mean, hateful and down right nasty. Give his phone number to my boyfriend to let him do to Toby what Toby did to me. Let him tell Toby what a peice of shit he is. Let him tell him how he was worthless and never worth the time God spent creating him. I cant believe I actually loved him. What a waste. I look at myself now and wonder why I was so stupid. Talk about closure. I got it in a big way. Just finding out hes alone. Cause I know that man. I know he beats himself up when he knows he is wrong. I hope this is eating his heart like a flesh eating disease. I dont really care how utterly unChristian that sounds. God forgive me for it but I want him to feel the pain I did.