Ever get to a point in life where you feel left behind? I get there sometimes. Im actually there now. Not that I feel insufficient for it but I have a bit of longing for the security that goes with it. My two best girl friends are getting married. Ones having another baby. Im still just me. I have nothing or none to go home to at night. Nothing in particular to look forward to. I realize its socially acceptable to be at the place I am at in life right now. But its not personally acceptable. I have no love left in my heart. Its all taken. I dont think I could fit another single soul or partial in my heart. Thing is I really only love a few people. The love I do feel is deep and emotional. Yet my heart aches. Im learning all over again how to see everything from a fresh prospective. I dont know where or how my heart will find this peace it so craves, but it needs to heal. I have so many wounds I have left untreated that it is pathetic. I am finding a new one daily. I need to be refreshed. But is that possible? Only time will tell. Im feeling a little out of sorts for this moment. Dont ask why, I couldnt explain it if I tried. Im just a girl with a soul still searching for a place to call home.