The way I felt

I looked out the window this morning,
The sun was still shining and the wind was still blowing.

Some how I had expected it all to cease,
All because my heart now has this big crease.

It seems as though everything should be still,
But that is not in God's will.

You're not really gone in my mind,
But I see now thats because my love was blind.

As I look around now I know that there is some one who has always loved me,
Although I was blind and never could see.

Through it all he stood there brave and tall,
Acting as my rock so that I could not fall.

Protecting my heart was his only mission,
But I never could see it as passion.

"Thats my friend" was all I would say,
When they would ask why I didnt love him that way.

Now I wonder that same thing myself,
And wish I could change the way I felt.