Ever notice that my blog is basically about love and lack of it??

Frequently I put myself in a position where love is an important factor in my life. Unfortunately I get stomped on in the process. I never quite get it right. Though I can only say I have loved three men in my life. Which I feel may be quite alot for my age. I fear though that what will end up happening is my life will be a collage of love that I have given and rarely been given. I fear I will offer more than any man will ever give me. Its sad to know that but I really do feel that way. I feel as if the world got love and I got none. But hey thats how it goes. Seems my blog consists of lost of woes when it comes to love. Do I ever really point out the things that I have experienced love wise that made me happier than anything in the world? Yes but rarely. I dont wanna embarass any one with the things that I hold to the most sentimental and sacred memories in my heart. I say that because the memories I hold most valued are ones most will look at me and laugh at. Stupid little things and sappy moments. The little comments and small gestures. Seems once again that the biggest love I have been given is by some one whom has never failed me. But I am the one this time with nothing to give in return. Thus hurting them. I feel like a heel. One day I swear to God I will get this love thing right. Hopefully it will be before I spend my life alone and cold. Thats what Im turning into right now is a lonely, cold and bitter person.