Heres todays itemized list of things I am throwing out....
1. Toby hurt me so fuck him.
2. James well I just need the last 5 months gone.. So its not him just the memory.
3. That trip Doug and I took in October that emotionally ripped me to shreds. Thanks for being there Dougie!
4. The phone call that revealed to me how other women feel about me. Thanks Maxine you freakin whore.
5. The entire four years I spent with a liar. Gee Toby you sure know how to treat a girl.
Ok so all this isnt gonna just disappear cause I wrote it down. But Im workin on getting rid of it. But I had people who really loved me helping me threw it all. Like I said Im not getting rid of James just the part where we were an us thing. Doesnt mean my heart will love him any less. But boy do I wish it could. Im workin on that too. Because before all of that bull shit we were awesome friends. Now he cant stand me and lets face it I dont want to know about the girls. Nina is the ONLY one I care to hear anything about. Probably because even though I know he doubts this, I am worried about her. I dont know her but I see something there that I cant explain. I see that same girl searching for acceptance and love that I still am.
6 comments:
Well atleast its a step in the right direction. Good luck with it. Once you figured out how to do it, let me know.
Life is one hell of a sucky place but hey its about the process right?
You'll get there, big sis. Just give it some time. Love ya..
Thanks. Love you too.
take it easy babe...throwing out your things is a step in the right direction like what pseudo sanity said..
at least you wont be reminded of the wrong things!
You know I dont know you guys, but yall are really helping me in a big way. I mean i know Hope shes my sister but Im in a self made world of hurt. I have to work threw it. Thank you for supporting me...
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