Don't cry because its over, Smile because it happened. -- Dr. Seuss
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
warning, this is emotional for me...
About two years ago, I moved to the department I am in now at work. This is when I met him for the very first time. He was off in his little corner working on the disaster bulletin as we had just had a hurricane and needed to keep updated information on our hotels. So I thought to myself that he was a very hard worker and kind of kept to himself. Then I started to get to know him and learned there was a wonderful person sitting next to me.
A few months into my endeavor at the lead desk, my friend became ill. To be honest he had been ill a long time, but this was new to me. I never knew that he was sick, to be honest it wouldnt have made a difference in our friendship. So I sent get well cards and such and in a month or so he was back to work and we were picking on him about all the pills he was taking. He was such a good sport about it all.
One afternoon he walked up to me and had that usual sly grin on his face. I said "Ok now what are you up too?" He just grinned and poked me in the side. To this he says " You know that I am gay right?" Well yeah I knew, so then he just laughs like it was a huge secret, "I think you have the cutest figure." That actually made me blush a little.
I worked on two committees with him. That was the Birthday and Team Building Committees. He was always there making me laugh while we worked on projects.
Some of my favorite memories of him were when we would be in a meeting and he would lighten the mood a little with a story. In particular I loved to hear him talk about telling his mom he was gay. She just sat there and clicked her finger nails and said "guess I wont be getting any damned grand kids from you." He did the funniest impression of her.
One afternoon we were under a tornado warning and the managers put us all under our desks. I am famous for my fear of these storms at work. David got up and walked around, when a manager walked by and told us to get under our desks again, he responed with "Well Im gonna die one day anyways so I think I will stay here." This I have to admit cracked me up a bit. But at that point I had no idea how ill he really was. I still have a picture I took with my cell phone of him that day.
I remember the last time I saw him at work. I had been ill. (I guess part of me will always feel guilty for hugging him that day, even though the illness had nothing to do with me.) He had been having some problems and was not feeling so well but I guess part of me knew it. The next afternoon Iheard some one say that he was slurring words and such that afternoon and was going to the doctor for some tests. I was worried some what and called my mom to ask for some prayer.
The next week was a bit of a challenge at work, I began hearing things like he was on an extended medical leave. Then one evening I was in Alpha and our "bat phone" rang. It was him. He was just calling cause he wanted to say hello. I talked a bit and he filled me in on just how bad it really was.
Then in the end of April we got the email telling us that if we wanted to see him again where we needed to go visit. To please do it sooner rather than later, he only had a few weeks to live. So a few of us sat to work and gave the team a project. Why send real flowers when we could make him some. So our team (work) made him paper flowers.
The morning of May 9th, I got the call from my boss. He had passed over the last night. I just kind of sat there in disbelief. Even at work I refused to really cry. It wasnt until the funeral, when they began to speak that I broke down. My friend Christy held my hand through it. We cried together as a team and as friends that day. He made our world a better place to be.
My friend was David Cantrell. I know that he was not some one I knew for a long time, nor that well. But he was some one that made a lasting impression on me and who never ceased to make me smile. There really should be more David's in this world.
**** Im sorry if this story jumps around and is a little out of place. It took me forever to figure out just how to say you love some one who never knew it.
Friday, April 20, 2007
I wore mine, did you?
I am a student, so I have been thinking about what this would feel like. I know that is crazy. I have been thinking about those students and wondering if I would have been able to try to save the others in my class, if I were in their shoes. I know, I know. Its silly. But it makes you look around a little when you are going to class now. I watch the people in the hall ways. I scrutinize every one I pass at school, in the store, every where I go. This is sad.
But for today, I wore my marroon and orange. This was to show support for these students and family members. I saw on the news that they were asking people to do this. So I did, Adam did, and so did a few of my friends at work. I even painted my nails marroon. Not a far stretch for me since I have more marroon clothing and polish and doodads than most people. Its one of my favorite colors and the color of my favorite college so I was geared up. I looked like the sick little cheerleaders on game day. Only this time it was to show that I too, am thinking about those students and teachers who were so senselessly murdered on Monday.
Like Columbine, this will live in my memory for years to come. It will live in my mind forever as a day we sat in shock and wondered why some one would do this. I just dont understand. That guy was totally whacked. I really feel for his family, they will probably be hated because of his actions. My prayers are just as much with that boys family as they are with the other families of the actual victims. Afterall, they too lost a loved one, even if he was sick and demented, that is not their fault. He made his family a victim of his crime with his actions that day. So my prayers are with every family who lost some one that day, every friend who lost a friend and every one who was touched in any way by this act.
So I wore mine, did you?
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Saturday, April 14, 2007
life at our house
Im doing pretty well in school! I got a 76 on my second Chem test. Yes sir, I am very proud of that! Especially after totally bombing the first test. In Medical Terminology, I have had three tests and the scores are as follows: 94, 86, 83! Go me! Not to toot my own horn but I am totally kickin medical terminology butt!
I am currently supporting three causes. One is my friend Kris, who is participating in Team in Training to raise money for Leukemia patients! Go girl! Tomarrow I will be participating in the MS walk to support Multiple Sclerosis. Then on the 29th of April I will be participating in Walk America to support the March of dimes, walking to save babies. To support Kris see my top entry, to support me and Team Hope in the March of Dimes Walk America, see my side bar at the top!
My baby brother was in an accident so now he is looking for a new vehichle. Im just thanking God that he is still here. His truck some how had a carbon dioxide leak into it. Since his windows were rolled up it filled the cabin of his truck and he fell asleep. He took out a light pole and then came to a stop 30 feet from the busy, rush hour traffic, interstate. Then if he hasnt had it hard enough, he then went into work the other day and his boss gave him the boot for "walking off the job." Baffles us cause he left when he was supposed to just like he did every day. So now he is looking for a new job as well. Prayers are really needed hes not feeling like much of a winner at the moment. Poor kid. I am trying to get him to come apply with Marriott. We may sit on the phone all day but hell you can get some killer bonus checks. When I was on the sales floor I could easily double my check in bonuses. I am really praying for the kid.
Other than all this we are having life as usual! Maybe it will stay that way or even get better!!!
Friday, March 23, 2007
Edition #19
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1. "Monster, did you feed the General?" 2. "Is that really possible, I mean come on its not that common." 3. "Dont pick it up with your feet! Damn!" 4. "We dont bite mommy!!!" 5. "Vaccuuming is fun!" 6. "Dont mind him, hes the captain of dream land." 7. "Hon, the dog ate the landscaping lights...." 8. "You're on poop duty." 9. "My mommy loves me more than my mommy loves you!" 10. "Can you believe she has never had Bar B Que before?" 11. "Did Amanda just say ASS, umm Im telling..." 12. "Dont look at that commercial, Im sure I know exactly what kind of ring you really want.... Walmarts finest cubic zirconia, right?" (smack) 13. "Stupidity makes my day...."
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Thursday, March 15, 2007
Edition #18
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1. Carditis- Inflammation of the heart. 2. Dystrophy- Abnormal development. 3. Bilateral- Having two sides. 4. Osteoarthritis- Inflammation involving bone at the joints. 5. Ilium- Hip bone. 6. Histology- The study of tissue. 7. Cytology- The study of cells and their functions. 8. Epthelial Tissue- Is found throughout the body as a lining for internal organs and also forms the outer skin. 9. Neurons- Nerve cells that combine to form nerve fibers. 10. Transurethral- Across the urethra. 11. Cardiomegaly- Enlarged heart. 12. Neoplasm- New formation. 13. Cyanosis- Abnormal condition of being blue. Links to other Thursday Thirteens!1. (leave your link in comments, I’ll add you here!) |
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Tuesday, March 13, 2007
Updates, updates
Today was very pretty out. Where was I though? I was in bed with a three day old migrane. That sucked let me tell you. Its only been in the last 5 or so hours that my head has quit feeling like it was going to explode. This after noon I did acomplish some things, though they were few. I potted my 4 rose bushes, that is until I am sure that there wont be any more freezes this year, I will keep them in pots. Then we went to the store and the sucker I am, I bought 2 more of them. All of them a different color. They should look beautiful in front of my house though! I cant wait to get them in the ground. In between them there will be tulips of various colors and varieties. I only bought like 9 or so bags back when I found them on sale this fall.
Im even thinking about putting them down the length of my sidewalk in the front. We will see though. Upon inspection of our newly dried out back yard, which has been completely covered in snow since we moved in. We discovered a whole slew of planted onions. I mean we found a lot of them. So we are going to move them from the center of our yard to the area of our new garden.
Last Monday we recarpted our basement, which makes our home feel just that much closer to being finished. Our dog doesnt quite know what to think yet. He wasnt allowed down there before and now we spend most of our time down there watching tv or hanging out with him.
We found out that my older sister is having a little boy in June! Get this though, the name is terrible. Ok the first name isnt but the middle name is so gonna get the kid made fun of. Xander Wolfgang. I wish I could tell you that I am joking. That is really the name for the kid.
I am going to Texas in June to see the new kid, my family and friends. I cant wait. I can however, wait for the expense. I am doing good with my finances, Adam says Im being too hard on myself though. I know all my money is going to bills, school and all that junk, but then I look at my bank account and just feel broke instead of good about being able to pay it all on my own. Im not whining, just feel a little drained. Then he reminds me that most at my age dont own a house and balance 40 hours of work with paying their own tuition. I guess he is right. Why do I feel like Im not really accomplishing anything though? Will it finally hit me what I have done (am doing) when I have the degree and am out of school? Will it hit me when I have that amazing job and make really really good money? I sure as heck hope so.
Finally, for anyone whose been keeping tabs on me and how I never really picked a major, I did it. I picked one. I want to go into the Radiography Technician program at the University of Nebraska Medical Center. Think I can do it? I sure hope so! They are super picky about who they let in so heres to hoping!!!
Thursday, March 01, 2007
Edition #17
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1. "Holy Buckets!" courtesy of Emily Morton 2. "Oh my gosh, have you read your email??" Sarah and Christy 3. "Holy cow what if they stick us with Dick? We might all die!!!" um yeah that was me! 4. "Its amazing we arent in weekly thearapy, but no one would believe this shit anyways." The Munchkin 5. "The first thing I thought was, oh gosh what is my dog doing now?" Adam, concerning our dogs habit of barking at the thunder. 6. "I will go spit on him if you would like...." Darryl J. 7. "Doesnt he remind you of a bunny rabbit??" Me again 8. "I think your my boyfriend's favorite." The Munchkin 9. "Hey! People this is a no party zone!" Anastasia 10. "I think he has some serious plastic surgery going on." Me to Anastasia 11. "For some reason he likes to go in the bathroom with people.." Carey 12. "Shes kinda shady when your not here!" Sarah 13. "I will not sign that document! Its like selling my soul to that woman!" Jennifer
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Tuesday, February 27, 2007
Please Support Kris in this worthy cause
Sunday, February 25, 2007
The First few days in our new house!
As promised, here are pictures of our new house! These are all of the first few days while we were painting and cleaning and such. I will post more later!
Saturday, February 24, 2007
Wednesday, February 14, 2007
Edition #16

Friday, February 09, 2007
Edition #15

Wednesday, January 24, 2007
Edition #14
Sunday, January 21, 2007
Events of Late
We moved in last week on, I wanna say, Wednesday. From then on its been colder than a witches tit! But anyways. Since our closing date, on December 29th, we have painted every room in the house except the upstairs bathroom. This room is soon to follow as we cant agree on a color. So.... the room colors are.....
Master bedroom- Burgundy
Second bedroom- buttery yellow
computer room- olive(but slightly darker) green
entry way/living/dining/kitchen/hall- cake batter
Basement- Warm Caramel
Basement bathroom- sky blue with ducky border.
Now I promise the pictures are to come. The basement still has another lighting set going in and new carpet. The living room is getting new furniture as our older furniture is going in the family room (basement). The kitchen and dining area are getting pergo flooring and the master bedroom is getting the rest of the bedroom set that goes with our new bed.
Woah that was a ton of work. Yeah it doesnt even sound like it. Next project after the carpet goes in will be a shelving desk unit to go around the computer room with book shelves for storage. Im so excited about having that room look less like a room full of overflowing boxes and more like an office like it is supposed to be!
Thursday, January 18, 2007
Edition #13
Wednesday, January 17, 2007
Tuesday, January 16, 2007
Name game is over!
Monday, January 15, 2007
Our new baby!

This is the newest addition to mine and Adam's family. He is a full blood, 9 month old, German Shepherd puppy. Right now he is 53.5 pounds and still growing! We havent really decided what we will call him. His name that the Humane Society gave him was Turk. But we want to give him a name that is from us. Now the debate will begin! We are open to suggestions. Adam really wants a German name since he is of German descent.