Life has kind of sucked. Two days after I got home I self medicated. I got my room mates to take me out and get me just a little way too drunk. I felt the need to be numb, apparently he did too cause He revealed to my Megan that he was doing the same. I just kept wishing that we would talk and be just like we used to be. I hated it. The next day I was in hangover hell. But I still remained quiet. I have done my best to do exactly what I vowed I would. I have left him alone for the most part. Other than letting him know the outcomes of doctor visits so that he didnt find out through Emily. Lets face it I fell in love. I wasnt really prepared for that.
So since I have been home I am now on 4 doctors visits, and have yet another on Tuesday. Last week Tuesday I had a trip to the doctor, he ran all sorts of blood tests and well it was my regular yearly visit so it was a good trip too. He was concerned when I told him about the black outs and convulsions. So he set me up with a neurologist to see what he thought. So that afternoon I was on to that. Sure enough he ran some tests was concerned and set me up for an EEG on Thursday morning. Yeah that sucked. I had to sleep for part of it, which was not fun, cause they hook all kinds of these probes to my head, I then went to sleep and they watched my brain waves. After that they woke me up had me look at strobe lights and then they had me hyperventilate so that they could watch that. it sucked! Thursday afternoon I was to the Cardiologist, this one courtesy of the Neurologist. He did some questioning that felt like an interrogation. He then took an EKG and blood pressure for like the 9th time in three days. He ordered a heart monitor and then set up and ECG for next week. Yay!
For the moment the culprit in question is that they believe I may be getting a drop in blood pressure causing all this. But they want to look and make sure that I have no defects or anything else. Hence the ECG. I am so sick of being the lab rat! I hate this. I should have the EEG results some time on Tuesday. I am not excited about that but I am nervous to see how they come out. At the very beginning of the EEG I started to have the symptoms of the black outs. But laying there with my eyes closed seemed to help so it didn't last long and didn't complete. So hopefully they will see something of value in it.
So theres the rest of the story for now. I will write more later. As all of this has progressed I am even more stressed and even more tired. I am ready to be well again. I have never felt more alone.
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Monday, January 24, 2011
Friday, April 20, 2007
Please Support this Cause!!!!
Have you ever wondered if there was anything you could do to make a difference in some one's life? Well here is an opportunity! My friend Kris is participating in Team in Training. It is a program that helps Leukemia patients and their families. Shes half way to her goal! 75% of the money raised goes directly to these patients and their families. Proceeds do not go to some rich doctor!!!! Please open your hearts and give what ever you can! Every penny counts!
Thursday, March 15, 2007
Edition #18
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Monday, January 08, 2007
2006 in Review
1. What did you do in 2006 that you'd never done before?
Went to Chicago!
2. Did you keep your New Years' resolutions and will you make more for next year?
I didnt make any.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Yes, several actually.
4. Did anyone close to you die?
Yes. Four people actually. Ashley, Cassie, Maegen, Emily
5. What countries did you visit?
Just the one I live in!
6. What would you like to have in 2007 that you lacked in 2006?
Not much actually.
7. What date from 2006 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
The ones that I sat and cried for my girls who died this year.
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
We bought a house!
9. What was your biggest failure?
I didnt tell the girls I loved them. Now I cant.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Oh yeah I got pretty sick right at Christmas.
11. What was the best thing you bought?
Our house!!
12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?
hmm, I will have to get back to you on that one.
13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?
A whole stinking lot of people.
14. Where did most of your money go?
Rent
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Going to Miami, Chicago and Kansas City
16. What song will always remind you of 2006?
Good Question. I dont have a good answer though.
17. Compared to this time last year, are you: Happier or sadder? Thinner or fatter? Richer or poorer?
A heck of a lot happier, about the same size, I got a raise but I am not richer!!!
18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Tell them i loved them more.
19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
being upset at situations I could have changed.
20. How will you be spending Christmas?
Sicker than shit and at work.
21. Did you fall in love in 2006?
Nope. I was already there.
23. How many one-night stands?
None Im not that kinda girl.
24. What was your favourite TV program?
Deal or No Deal. or To Catch a Predator on Dateline.
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
Hate is such a strong word. I dont use it.
26. What was the best book you read?
Oh I read so many its hard to say. My favorite though was Elvis and Me by Pricilla Presley
27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Hm... I dont know that I had any.
28. What did you want and get?
To see my sisters, and I got them just not at the same time.
29. What did you want and not get?
Oh goodness alot of things.
30. What was your favourite film of this year?
Well I really loved Over the Hedge. But just for a good laugh RV was freaking hilarious.
31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I turned 24, I was sick.
32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Id rather not say that one, I still have this particular want.
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2006?
Do what I like!
34. What kept you sane?
Adam
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Hmmm.. I dont know.
36. What political issue stirred you the most?
Well I get involved in the Breast Cancer Awareness activities every year.
38. Who was the best new person you met?
I would have to say that would be Kellie Runge. Shes my boss, but I find it very easy to talk to her.
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2006.
Tell the people you love just how much you love them every chance you get. You may not have tomarrow.
40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
"Every now and then, soft as breath upon my skin, i feel you coming back again...... and I believe." --- when I am missing a loved one.
The name of the song is I Believe sung by Diamond Rio
Went to Chicago!
2. Did you keep your New Years' resolutions and will you make more for next year?
I didnt make any.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Yes, several actually.
4. Did anyone close to you die?
Yes. Four people actually. Ashley, Cassie, Maegen, Emily
5. What countries did you visit?
Just the one I live in!
6. What would you like to have in 2007 that you lacked in 2006?
Not much actually.
7. What date from 2006 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
The ones that I sat and cried for my girls who died this year.
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
We bought a house!
9. What was your biggest failure?
I didnt tell the girls I loved them. Now I cant.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Oh yeah I got pretty sick right at Christmas.
11. What was the best thing you bought?
Our house!!
12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?
hmm, I will have to get back to you on that one.
13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?
A whole stinking lot of people.
14. Where did most of your money go?
Rent
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Going to Miami, Chicago and Kansas City
16. What song will always remind you of 2006?
Good Question. I dont have a good answer though.
17. Compared to this time last year, are you: Happier or sadder? Thinner or fatter? Richer or poorer?
A heck of a lot happier, about the same size, I got a raise but I am not richer!!!
18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Tell them i loved them more.
19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
being upset at situations I could have changed.
20. How will you be spending Christmas?
Sicker than shit and at work.
21. Did you fall in love in 2006?
Nope. I was already there.
23. How many one-night stands?
None Im not that kinda girl.
24. What was your favourite TV program?
Deal or No Deal. or To Catch a Predator on Dateline.
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
Hate is such a strong word. I dont use it.
26. What was the best book you read?
Oh I read so many its hard to say. My favorite though was Elvis and Me by Pricilla Presley
27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Hm... I dont know that I had any.
28. What did you want and get?
To see my sisters, and I got them just not at the same time.
29. What did you want and not get?
Oh goodness alot of things.
30. What was your favourite film of this year?
Well I really loved Over the Hedge. But just for a good laugh RV was freaking hilarious.
31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I turned 24, I was sick.
32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Id rather not say that one, I still have this particular want.
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2006?
Do what I like!
34. What kept you sane?
Adam
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Hmmm.. I dont know.
36. What political issue stirred you the most?
Well I get involved in the Breast Cancer Awareness activities every year.
38. Who was the best new person you met?
I would have to say that would be Kellie Runge. Shes my boss, but I find it very easy to talk to her.
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2006.
Tell the people you love just how much you love them every chance you get. You may not have tomarrow.
40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
"Every now and then, soft as breath upon my skin, i feel you coming back again...... and I believe." --- when I am missing a loved one.
The name of the song is I Believe sung by Diamond Rio
Sunday, January 07, 2007
Major for School
So any ideas? Im trying to figure out what I want in a major for school. Right now i am looking at a program with the university of Nebraska Med center. Im looking at Radiation Science Technology. But I just dont know. I dont know what I want to do yet, nor if I have the confidence that it would take.
I also looked into Pharmeceutical Sciences. But Im not really sure thats what I want to do. I am more and more looking into this kind of medical field. Im serious, if you have any ideas please throw them at me!!!
I also looked into Pharmeceutical Sciences. But Im not really sure thats what I want to do. I am more and more looking into this kind of medical field. Im serious, if you have any ideas please throw them at me!!!
Friday, October 20, 2006
Breast Cancer Awareness
October is Breast Cancer Awareness month! I regularly participate in various things to help raise awareness or funds towards breast cancer research! Recently my mother and I participated in The Race for a Cure. That was so much fun and I just couldn't believe the amounts of people who showed up to support these wonderful women and men! Yes men can get it too! I met so many women who were going through this struggle, and it touched me.
Recently I have had a sonogram and mammogram on a rather large mass in my left breast. It turned out to be nothing. But I do have to have a sonogram every 6 months now. My doctor was very concerned when my mother informed him that my grandmother had breast cancer as a young woman. Not too much older than me. I have a history of these cysts, but now we are really watching them. She was only 30 when this happened to her. I am now 24.
I believe in supporting this cause. If you want to participate, even just buy buying merchandise, Avon has a beautiful silver bracelet for $5.00! I have that, as do all my sisters, mother, Adam's mom, and sisters. I mean come on its $5.00! Since I didn't mention it, $4.00 of that goes to raise money towards breast cancer research!
Also www.thebreastcancersite.com has plenty of wonderful items! It is time to start shopping for Christmas, why not give a gift that has a wonderful meaning! I purchased a beautiful Pink Ribbon purse just tonight!
Remember that early detection is the key to getting a more positive treatment! Check yourself often! I don't have a personal relationship with every one who reads this site, but I do hope that you all have happy, healthy lives! Please, you owe it to yourself to know that you are healthy!!!
October is Breast Cancer Awareness month, but don't let it end with October's end! Join the Breast Cancer ring at the bottom of my page, if nothing else! Its always nice to know that some one is willing to help spread awareness!
Recently I have had a sonogram and mammogram on a rather large mass in my left breast. It turned out to be nothing. But I do have to have a sonogram every 6 months now. My doctor was very concerned when my mother informed him that my grandmother had breast cancer as a young woman. Not too much older than me. I have a history of these cysts, but now we are really watching them. She was only 30 when this happened to her. I am now 24.
I believe in supporting this cause. If you want to participate, even just buy buying merchandise, Avon has a beautiful silver bracelet for $5.00! I have that, as do all my sisters, mother, Adam's mom, and sisters. I mean come on its $5.00! Since I didn't mention it, $4.00 of that goes to raise money towards breast cancer research!
Also www.thebreastcancersite.com has plenty of wonderful items! It is time to start shopping for Christmas, why not give a gift that has a wonderful meaning! I purchased a beautiful Pink Ribbon purse just tonight!
Remember that early detection is the key to getting a more positive treatment! Check yourself often! I don't have a personal relationship with every one who reads this site, but I do hope that you all have happy, healthy lives! Please, you owe it to yourself to know that you are healthy!!!
October is Breast Cancer Awareness month, but don't let it end with October's end! Join the Breast Cancer ring at the bottom of my page, if nothing else! Its always nice to know that some one is willing to help spread awareness!
Thursday, October 05, 2006
Well I talked to the Dr.'s office. Stupid nurse just didnt read my whole chart before she called. Turned out that nothing else was wrong. Thank God! She wanted to know if I wanted to have a surgical procedure to remove the cyst. I had already said no, which was in my chart, along with that I had made a follow up appointment for March. Nurse kept asking me all the questions, I asked her flat out if she had read my chart. She put me on hold, then came back and apologized for the inconveince. No big deal, I just felt like I had be alarmed for no reason.
Dont get me wrong, Id rather it be no reason, but I spent all night worried, barely slept. All that because I was afraid there was something terribly wrong with me. Next time I wont freak out so easy! Good news is that I am healthy! Yay me!!!!
Dont get me wrong, Id rather it be no reason, but I spent all night worried, barely slept. All that because I was afraid there was something terribly wrong with me. Next time I wont freak out so easy! Good news is that I am healthy! Yay me!!!!
Tuesday, October 03, 2006
Results, News
Well I went to the doctor for my sonogram for the lump. Every thing turned out to be fine, have to go back in a few months. That appointment is to check and make sure that everything is the same. So that was relieving!
However, today the doctor called my mom to tell me that I needed to come back. Apparently there was something wrong with one of my tests. They said that I would only get a call back if something was wrong, otherwise I would recieve a letter in the mail to let me know everything was fine.
This is a little scary. I have to call the nurse back tomarrow to find out what is going on. I am really worried now. I finally got over the whole episode of holding my breath over the breast exam. I am just kinda a little scared.
However, today the doctor called my mom to tell me that I needed to come back. Apparently there was something wrong with one of my tests. They said that I would only get a call back if something was wrong, otherwise I would recieve a letter in the mail to let me know everything was fine.
This is a little scary. I have to call the nurse back tomarrow to find out what is going on. I am really worried now. I finally got over the whole episode of holding my breath over the breast exam. I am just kinda a little scared.
Thursday, September 28, 2006
Nervousness and honesty
Well I went to the doctor on Tuesday morning. Annual check up, you know the one every woman hates going to. I mean after all it is no fun to put your foot up in the stir ups and let some one look at and feel you. I know its all to make sure you are healthy, but I hate going. This doctor is quite nice, and I was very comfortable with him. He explained every thing to me, and took the time to answer any and all of my questions. After my breast exam, he did recomend further testing. I agree. I have put it off long enough.
Friday morning, I have yet another doctors appointment. Dr Bassett wont be with me, but if they find something solid then I will then have to go discuss further treatment. Basically on a woman my age, a mammogram is not the most reliable test. So I am going in for a sonogram, much like a woman has during pregnancy. Only difference is that it is on my breast. I am assured that it doesnt hurt, or cause discomfort. So I am not really worried about that. I am worried at the outcome. I have decided to go at this test alone. I am not going to take any one with me for support. I need to face this on my own, i think.
I am told that if it is solid then I need to worry. If it isnt then I will be fine. Im praying for fibrous, since thats the one thats not bad. I have put this testing off for more than a year. The first lump we found I was 19 so i do have a history of lumps, just never went far enough to have anything done about them. After all women my age just dont get breast cancer, and thats a load of shit. Its just not common.
Cancer is like an ugly four lettered word no one wants to think of or utter. I believe I will be fine. I believe that this is nothing more than my own mind psyching me out, I will be fine. I will go into that doctors office and get that sonogram, they will tell me that I have no solid cyst, and I will walk out ready to celebrate(sit in class for 4 hours actually). Anyone else think that I am crazy?
Friday morning, I have yet another doctors appointment. Dr Bassett wont be with me, but if they find something solid then I will then have to go discuss further treatment. Basically on a woman my age, a mammogram is not the most reliable test. So I am going in for a sonogram, much like a woman has during pregnancy. Only difference is that it is on my breast. I am assured that it doesnt hurt, or cause discomfort. So I am not really worried about that. I am worried at the outcome. I have decided to go at this test alone. I am not going to take any one with me for support. I need to face this on my own, i think.
I am told that if it is solid then I need to worry. If it isnt then I will be fine. Im praying for fibrous, since thats the one thats not bad. I have put this testing off for more than a year. The first lump we found I was 19 so i do have a history of lumps, just never went far enough to have anything done about them. After all women my age just dont get breast cancer, and thats a load of shit. Its just not common.
Cancer is like an ugly four lettered word no one wants to think of or utter. I believe I will be fine. I believe that this is nothing more than my own mind psyching me out, I will be fine. I will go into that doctors office and get that sonogram, they will tell me that I have no solid cyst, and I will walk out ready to celebrate(sit in class for 4 hours actually). Anyone else think that I am crazy?
Saturday, November 12, 2005
The Patch
So I am currently re-evaluating my form of birth control. Seems the FDA put out a warning a few days ago about the patch. But so far mine is working just beautifully, of coarse there are side effects of any form. Aside from the fact that it is like a bandaid that you can not change for seven days, it is wonderful.
Supposedly now they are warning that it causes blood clots and such effects. I have read two articles now on the "problems" and just wonder if the woman in the interview at the end just wants to scare people because she had problems. I do however not believe that some one died from it. All birth controls have these warnings and warn that if taken improperly death has occurred. But now I wonder should I switch methods when this is the only form that has ever worked on me.
This is the first time that I have taken any for of birth control that hasnt made me extremely emotional or totally irritable. I have talked to several people that I know who either use this patch or have taken it. All have mixed ideas on it.
Adams family knows this is our method. They are all scared now that I am going to end up sick. Well I want them not to worry but I am still not too sure of what I am going to do about this yet.
Carey says the only reason that she is really worried about it is because of my size. Maybe if I had a little more fat on my body she would not worry so much. Carey is a doctor so I trust her judgement on these things. She is really very smart. When I first started the patch she kept up with Adam on how I was doing. Checked on every side effect I had with her advisors and kept Adam calm on how I reacted as my body adjusted. So I dont know what to think. Maybe I will go talk to her again and see what she thinks of my situation. You know with out her brother sitting there on pins and needles. Then make this decision in the most informed way possible.
What is the general opinion of my dear friends though, I do wonder. If you would like to read up on this before stating an opinion here is a website....
http://msnbc.msn.com/id/9997384
Your opinion would be greatly appreciated. Thanks!
Supposedly now they are warning that it causes blood clots and such effects. I have read two articles now on the "problems" and just wonder if the woman in the interview at the end just wants to scare people because she had problems. I do however not believe that some one died from it. All birth controls have these warnings and warn that if taken improperly death has occurred. But now I wonder should I switch methods when this is the only form that has ever worked on me.
This is the first time that I have taken any for of birth control that hasnt made me extremely emotional or totally irritable. I have talked to several people that I know who either use this patch or have taken it. All have mixed ideas on it.
Adams family knows this is our method. They are all scared now that I am going to end up sick. Well I want them not to worry but I am still not too sure of what I am going to do about this yet.
Carey says the only reason that she is really worried about it is because of my size. Maybe if I had a little more fat on my body she would not worry so much. Carey is a doctor so I trust her judgement on these things. She is really very smart. When I first started the patch she kept up with Adam on how I was doing. Checked on every side effect I had with her advisors and kept Adam calm on how I reacted as my body adjusted. So I dont know what to think. Maybe I will go talk to her again and see what she thinks of my situation. You know with out her brother sitting there on pins and needles. Then make this decision in the most informed way possible.
What is the general opinion of my dear friends though, I do wonder. If you would like to read up on this before stating an opinion here is a website....
http://msnbc.msn.com/id/9997384
Your opinion would be greatly appreciated. Thanks!
Monday, October 10, 2005
I feel terrible..
So this form of birth control that my doctor put me on is nice, but today I feel like crap. I dont even think I will make it through my shift at work tonight. I have put myself on the downtime list though. That almost never happens but I did it anyways. But if I cant make it I will at least hold out until 630 tonight. Thats half of my shift so thats not so bad. Esp since I have given away half of my shift away Friday. So then I would just keep that half and wouldnt be affected to much. Anyways. I just dont feel good and Adam is proving to be just wonderful. I had the NOrwalk virus a few weeks ago and he took care of me for two days. Last night when I started feeling badly he started taking care of me. Hes a wonderful person. I dont know what I would do with out him, esp when I am sick. But in all fairness Doc did warn me that this might happen. So I guess I should have expected it. But I have to admit I didnt. I never had problems with my old birth control so I expected this to be the same. But then again I can see why this one would affect me considering its a patch... It is continuous rather than once aday. So I guess I just have to suck it up and get used to this before the yuck goes away.....
Sunday, May 01, 2005
no real point tonight
I havent posted more than a few comments in a few days. Havent felt really good in close to a week. My chest has been bothering me and my allergies are going insane!!! Yeah I have been pathetic. Oh my gosh I got so bored the other night at work when I had finished every thing. I found out what my employee rate was for cities all over the world. Wow is all I have to say. I wanna travel now. Ha! Anyways I just wanted to let all know I am ok. Just not feeling quite so hot! Be back to normal soon! Lots of love to my peeps!
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