Waiting

I feel like I'm playing the waiting game. Though I am living my life every day.  It's a funny thing you see, loving someone I can not reaffirm every day.  Not being able to look at him and say "you are worthy of love" when really that's what he needs. 

See when we are together we have this way about us.  We are at peace with ourselves and our world. When we aren't, we play a game.  I love you, but we aren't together.  I won't tell you when I'm with someone else cause I can't take knowing when you are putting a place holder in my place.  Yes that's pathetic.

We both agree that if we were in the same place we would be together.  That if that happened, there would be no end. So how the hell can I stop the waiting game?