Then there was two.

Ever know you just wanted to be alone? I mean no dating, no one to talk to, just alone. I was like that a little more than two years ago. That was me, the day I moved to Omaha. I moved to be near my mom, where I knew I could just heal. I knew I could just be, but not be forgotten.

Then I met Adam. Ok I chatted with him, then he became a pretty good friend. We would chat for hours. He asked me out on numerous occassions over the month and a half that we talked before I accepted a date.

Our first date was very nice. I knew I wanted to see him again, but wasnt sure I wanted another boyfriend so very soon. So I kind of kept him at an arms length. We went out for the first time in April, then I didnt see him again until the end of May. Though we did talk every single night up until that point. He would ask me if he had done something wrong that I didnt want to see him again.

Finally I realized I wasnt going to get hurt if I never put myself back out there and even worse I would definantly never find anything worth having if I didnt allow myself to feel anything. So I asked him out on a second date. This time we stayed out and talked for hours. I dont think I came home until 0600 the next morning. Seriously we didnt even kiss that night. We just sat around and talked and watched movies. It was fun.

After that night we were pretty much joined to the hip. We would hang out just about every night and on my days off. If we didnt have anything to do, we would just drive around. We had a whole lot of fun. Then my sister and brother, Hope and Matt, moved to Omaha. Hope wasnt here long cause she joined the Airforce. But the house was pretty crowded and I decided to get an apartment.

So In August my friend Jessica and I got our apartment. Adam would stay most of the night then either go to his sisters or home. Usually only to call in the early morning hours to see if he could come back. Eventually I just gave him a key since Jess liked having him around. I mean who wouldnt, he was a good cook, quiet and nice. If he wasnt there Jess would ask when he was gonna be home, as if he was on the lease with the two of us. So the three of us lived in the little apartment for a year.

Then after that year was up we moved in to his apartment, then we bought our house in December. Its like I was this single, miserable person then there was Adam. Now Im a happy girl who has accomplished so many things just by the little bit of encouragement that he has provided me with. I never in a million years would have thought that I would eventually own a home. Especially not one that is this nice, and we own a pretty average house. I moved around just enough as a child that I never thought it would happen. Then I got a loser boyfriend and didnt go back to school after high school like i should have. Then I got my wonderful Adam, and he encouraged me to go back to school and here I am two years from graduation!

I read a blog earlier that asked if you believed in soul mates. My reaction to that question really always has been no. I may not have a soul mate but I do have partner in life and all that it may bring, even though we are not married and really have no plans for it. We just live for the every day and hope for the best. At the end of the day, even if we are mad at each other, we are happy with each other and thats all I need to know.

Updates, updates

Well the new quarter has begun at school. I am now in College Chemistry and Medical Terminology. I have to say it seems like this quarter will be challenging but good. I loved Chemistry in high school and my professor teaches with the assumption that every one has absolutely no back ground with the subject. My terminology class, however, is online. So I will have to be more self driven for that class. I can do it though. I know I can. I find my self saying "woah" every time I learn something new or what something really means. So thats a good thing right?

Today was very pretty out. Where was I though? I was in bed with a three day old migrane. That sucked let me tell you. Its only been in the last 5 or so hours that my head has quit feeling like it was going to explode. This after noon I did acomplish some things, though they were few. I potted my 4 rose bushes, that is until I am sure that there wont be any more freezes this year, I will keep them in pots. Then we went to the store and the sucker I am, I bought 2 more of them. All of them a different color. They should look beautiful in front of my house though! I cant wait to get them in the ground. In between them there will be tulips of various colors and varieties. I only bought like 9 or so bags back when I found them on sale this fall.

Im even thinking about putting them down the length of my sidewalk in the front. We will see though. Upon inspection of our newly dried out back yard, which has been completely covered in snow since we moved in. We discovered a whole slew of planted onions. I mean we found a lot of them. So we are going to move them from the center of our yard to the area of our new garden.

Last Monday we recarpted our basement, which makes our home feel just that much closer to being finished. Our dog doesnt quite know what to think yet. He wasnt allowed down there before and now we spend most of our time down there watching tv or hanging out with him.
We found out that my older sister is having a little boy in June! Get this though, the name is terrible. Ok the first name isnt but the middle name is so gonna get the kid made fun of. Xander Wolfgang. I wish I could tell you that I am joking. That is really the name for the kid.

I am going to Texas in June to see the new kid, my family and friends. I cant wait. I can however, wait for the expense. I am doing good with my finances, Adam says Im being too hard on myself though. I know all my money is going to bills, school and all that junk, but then I look at my bank account and just feel broke instead of good about being able to pay it all on my own. Im not whining, just feel a little drained. Then he reminds me that most at my age dont own a house and balance 40 hours of work with paying their own tuition. I guess he is right. Why do I feel like Im not really accomplishing anything though? Will it finally hit me what I have done (am doing) when I have the degree and am out of school? Will it hit me when I have that amazing job and make really really good money? I sure as heck hope so.

Finally, for anyone whose been keeping tabs on me and how I never really picked a major, I did it. I picked one. I want to go into the Radiography Technician program at the University of Nebraska Medical Center. Think I can do it? I sure hope so! They are super picky about who they let in so heres to hoping!!!

Edition #15

Thirteen Nicknames I have accumulated....

1. "Short Cake"... This name is one given to me by my lovely sister, the munchkin, Hope. Yeah you guessed it, Im shorter than her and most of the rest of the people in my family! If any one else called me this I may hurt them severly!!

2. "Deeze"... To make a really long story short, My best buddy, Kevin, and I had two years of French together. I dont remember exactly where it originated, or out of what lesson, but this name went all the way through high school with me and now 7 years later, I will still answer to it. Though it produces strange looks when other people hear it....

3. "Turtle"... This one is my personal favorite. Yeah I know how totally dorky right? This one is the name Adam calls me. I got this because of the way I burrow into a blanket and all you can see is my head sticking out and occassionally all you see is my nose. So hes called me the turtle since we first moved in together.

4. "Wart"... Dont make fun of me! Im kidding, I dont care how silly it sounds. My mom called me this when I was a toddler because she couldnt call me a little fart infront of her grandmother. To this day she calls me her little wart and it is a name I am proud to have, since none of the other kids really have one that stuck their whole life.

5. "Amanda Lou"... Yes my name is Amanda. No Lou is not part of my given name. My co-workers call me this. I dont know exactly how it came to be but I answer to it and look at it as my way of fitting in. I love that my coworkers gave me a name.

6. "Mandie"... Now thats original... I wonder where that came from!

7. "Tex"... That one is just about explanatory, incase you didnt know though, Im from Texas. But one of the managers at work calls me that every day.

8. "Aunt Mandie"... Yep I got a nephew and a yet to be determined! Im so excited.

9. "Sistow"... My older sister, Lisa, calls me that. Especially when she wants something. It actually works most of the time too!

10. "Kid"... My brother, Matt, who is younger than me but much much taller, calls me kid. I guess though when he can lean over and put his elbow on my head, it doesnt look like his my younger sibling....

11. "Dr. Moore"... My dear friend Silile, calls me this just because she wants me to go to medical school with her. Shes the coolest person I know!

12. "Mander"... Yet another work name. My friend Gary J. calls me this. He has a daughter about my age that is also named Amanda. So it kind of comes natural.

13. And my personal favorite. "Medium"... Since I am the middle child. My step dad calls me medium, Hope is small and Lisa is Large!

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updates

So its been a while since I updated you guys, I mean really updated. I started my new quarter at school last week. So yeah my lifes been so busy. I go to work Sunday threw Wednesday from 630 pm to 0230 am, then get up for school at 1000 am every morning Monday threw Friday. I also work on Saturday from 330pm to 1130 pm. So for the moment I have no days where I have a day Im not committed to work or school, or both. Im exhausting myself fast!

We have still been house hunting. We decided to make another offer on a house we previously made a few offers and counters on. Well we got the word tonight the gentleman(jerk) selling this house, finally accepted and is signing paper work. So now we are just waiting to get that paperwork so that we can sign and get our loan stuff underway. Luckily for us we have already been preapproved so it wont take too long. Hopefully we will have closed out the deal by the first week of the year. But Im so gun shy at this point, I am not ready to get excited until the day they hand us the keys. Thats the day I will get excited. So you guys cross your fingers.

On the job front, Adam has been aching for a new job, only holding off because of our house stuff. Looks like he may have found a new job for the beginning of the year. Sweet! Now I only say maybe, due to the fact that he wont officially accept it until the house paperwork is finished. This job however would give us more time together, since we would work similar hours. It would make both of us happy in that aspect. He would have more time to do the things he loves, like ride his bike. Im just hoping that will fall in to place for him. He needs something that will not depress him every day. His current job does just that, only because his boss blames him for every thing (even his boss's mess ups).

Edition #7

Thirteen Influential people in my life.... 1. Lillian Margarite Moore- My Nana. She was a wonderful woman and taught me much about character, strength, and bravery. No matter how sick she got, she never complained and never felt sorry for herself. She carried herself with grace and dignity up until the brutal end. She always made me feel special and loved and I miss her very greatly. 2. Oletha Pilkington- My Great-Grandma. I remember when my mom told us about her cancer. I was in the first grade. I cried for hours that night. The next day mom let me stay home from school. That day she took me to see her. I didnt know how to react to her being sick, as I was a child. But I definetly understood the fact that she was dying and nothing would save her. It was a year later that she did pass away. I learned so much about love from her. Though my mother was her grandchild. She raised her as her own, so that her own mother could do as she pleased. She was the most selfless person I ever knew. I cherish every photo, memory and story I have of her. 3. Elaine Sorensen- This is my mother! I couldnt say enough to express what impact my mom has had on my life. She is a truly wonderful person. As we grew up, she was usually the only parent at home, as my father worked on the road. She was a total support system for not only her own four kids but to many of the kids we went to school with. My senior year of high school, she was the emergency contact for 25 of the kids at my school. In my four years, she missed exactly 2 of our total of 48 football games. She was the leading parent chaperone at our school and she was well respected by all the students and faculty. She has held my hand through countless breast exams, as I shook with fear. She has sat up with me when I was so sick I could barely move. She saved me when I was so depressed that even people I knew from childhood, didnt recognize the shell I had become. She is and always has been, my saving grace! 4. Hope Maureen Moore- "the munchkin" - My baby sister. No matter what I am going through, she sits up with me on the phone late at night while I cry. We share every thing. She joined the military after I couldnt. She is making dreams come true for me and her, even though I am not there. She is a true fighter, born prematurely, living in an incubator for her first few months. I remember not being able to see her until she was almost two months old. When mom and dad brought her home, I crawled on the back of Grandma's couch over my mom, and stared at that tiny baby. When I reached out to touch her, my mom guided me gently as I was scared to touch her, afraid she might break. I had never seen anything so tiny. I would stare at her for hours, and watch gaurd as if some one would hurt her. From the day my parents brought her home, she amazed me with her strength. I dont know what I would do with out my precious munchkin. 5. William Sorensen- My step father. He has done so much for me, I dont know how I could ever thank him enough. He makes my mom extremely happy, and he makes us all laugh. He is really a good man and I love him! I cant imagine not having him in my family! Even though I am not his kid, he treats me as if I am. 6. Kristy Sue-My very best friend in the entire world. She came into my life at the tender age of 4. We got thrown together because our older siblings were in Kindergarden together. Our moms would stick us in the corner to play while they helped with their classroom activities. Then we were assigned the same classes K-2nd grade. We were both devastated when our class assignments were different in the 3rd grade and begged that our parents have one of us switched. But they didnt. I guess we needed the time apart. Mid year our 4th grade year, I moved away. Being as close as we were, our moms made sure we still got to see each other. We would meet half way (a good 4-5 hour drive for each family) and exchange kids. I would go to her house for a week or two in the summer, she would then return for a week or two with me. Some times if we were lucky, our parents would trade us over holiday breaks too! IT was always the high light of my year. Then when we moved back to Texas, we got to see each other more frequently. Instead of a date, I would plan in advance to have her be my "date" to our formal affairs for school. Then at 15, two days after school let out, her mom called to talk to my mom. Kristy was pregnant. From then on we both grew up fast. I wouldnt let her do that alone. After high school, we became room mates and she shared her daughter with me. I learned so much about kids from her little girl. Kristy has been my angel since childhood, I dont know what I would have done with out her all these years. Shes my blessing! 7. Kevin Andrew- My best guy friend in the whole universe! We met, really met, in my freshman year. My sister had decided we needed to be together. So yeah we dated for about 6 months. After that we settled into a friendship type relationship. As our time passed we became almost inseperable. I hated all his girlfriends, even the ones that were my friends, he detested my boy friends. No one was good enough for either of us in the other's eyes. We really looked out for one another. We did alot of things together. We had so many inside jokes and confidences, we could talk in codes. No one would understand anything we were saying except us. It really annoyed alot of the people who wanted to be included. When he started dating one of my close friends, she really got jealous of our comments that every one else ignored. She couldnt understand any of our codes. The longer she tried to understand, the more she didnt. I dont think a single person ever figured out any of our conversations unless we did it intentionally. Then that code would change meaning. I would take his jackets when I forgot mine, in choir, I would take his tux jacket, because it was warm and I was always cold. I took priority alot over his girlfriends in this aspect. They would be mad when they looked down the hall and saw me walking around in his jackets! We had numerous classes together, in which we were usually put on opposite sides of the class due to our talkative nature. Kevin has cried with me, fought for me, and talked sense into me more than most. I really am greatful for him! 8. Renee Stripling- My high school dance instructor. I was on her dance team for four years. Three of which I was some sort of officer. She chaperoned me to the ER at camp one year when I tore out my knee! She listend to me cry and held me when I needed some one to just hug me while I cried. She showed me that life took courage, strength and faith. In those four years I saw her become a mother, go through cancer, and place her husband lovingly to rest. The day he died, I watched her fall apart, then show us all that she would survive, with her little boy at her side. She taught me so much more than just dance and I loved her as my own mother. She would contemplate my punishments with my mother when I had done something worthy of punishment. Then I would get her famous leadership lecture. I respected her above all the teachers at school, though she was only one of the beloved ones I had. 9. Claudia Lamascus- My high school drama teacher. My freshman year she was diagnosed with breast cancer in both breasts. She shared all of it with us. She shaved her head at school. She even tested our classes out when she was ready to stop wearing hats and wigs. She would get this look on her face then raise her hand. To this the whole class would respond by pounding the desks in unison saying do it, in chanting form. She would then remove the wig. She taught us all how to deal with illness by leaning on the ones who love you for strength. She would have group discussion days once a month. During these discussions we felt free to openly discuss any of our problems with not just her, but the entire drama class. She taught us to become family. She taught me so many life lessons, and I love her to this day, though I know not where she is. 10. Adam Michael- My rock, My love. Every thing I do anymore, I think about how it will affect not just me but him. He kisses me in the morning when he is leaving for work, though I am still very grogy and barely respond. He greets me each evening with a warm embrace and a big smile. In my time of greatest need, he befriended me and made me feel self worth again. He restored alot of confidence. Makes sure every day that I know I am totally loved by him, even if I feel all alone at times. He cooks me dinner and cleans our kitchen! If I really want something, he will find a way to make it possible! Though not all things are attainable, he treats me like I am the only person who matters. He is my prince! He makes me the happiest person in the world, even on the days that I feel like poo. When I am sick, he takes care of me. When I need help with my home work, he will do his best to make sure I learn it! I dont know what I would be doing right now with out him. But I do know that I never want to lose him! 11. Mary Underwood- My favorite Aunt. She recently has shared so much with me, making me to feel comfortable to bare my deepest secrets to her. She has always been special to me. But lately shes become so much more special to me. She lets me tell her things I would never tell any one in the strictest of confidences. She will give me her honest opinions on my plights with out ever judging me. 12. Lisa Christine Moore- My older sister. I may complain about her alot. But she really is a wonderful person when she gets out of her daily (constant) bitch mode. This mode is one she willingly admits to. I very much look forward to seeing her again, and meeting her new addition when he or she is born. I wish she lived closer to me, but we all chose our paths. Hers just isnt here, its in a place of her own. I miss her very much and wish nothing but the best of things for her. She makes me laugh because under the bitch appearance she really is a great person and fun to be around. She freely speaks her mind and puts up a very tough front, but she gets hurt very easily. Most never see her soft side, and she doesnt trust easily, but she can be the nicest person once you do win her over. Just dont step on her, cause once her can is open you better run. 13. This space I will leave for the number of people I didnt list, such as Chris and Donna Johnson- my second set of parents who love me like their own. Doug and Carey Johnson who put up with me and Kristy for every thing we did! Katherine Rodriguez- my beautiful god daughter who has taught me so much and whom I love more than anything! My dad even though he hasnt always been there, his ways have taught me about doing things the right way instead of the wrong way. Matthew, my baby brother who may annoy the crud out of me, but always makes me laugh! My memother who may not always make me feel as if I am important but always loves me. I could name a lot of people but I will stop as you guys who have read all of this are now into a good sized novel! Links to other Thursday Thirteens!1. (leave your link in comments, I’ll add you here!)

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Im bored.

Q: What is in your left pocket?
A: i dont like to have anything in my pockets actually.

Q: How much alcohol did you have this week?
A: nothing actually.

Q: Do you eat petrol station food?
A: Not if I dont have too.

Q: Ever drive all night to get to someone?
A: Yep to Nebraska from Texas and from Texas to Florida

Q: Is Napoleon Dynamite actually a good movie?
A: Yeah, I loved it because of its uniqueness!

Q: Do you sleep in the nude?
A: Only when I am sick!

Q: What colour underwear do you have on?
A: Grey... nosey question lol

Q: Do you have hardwood or carpet in your house?
A: ask me that later

Q: Do you sit or stand in the shower?
A: Stand of coarse.

Q: Could you live with roommates?
A: I have had several and they worked out just fine.

Q: How many pairs of flip-flops do you own?
A: umm is this a trick question?? I give homeless shoes a home any chance I can!!!

Q: Where were you born?
A: Houston, Texas- Space City USA

Q: Ever been to rehab/jail?
A: Nah, Ive always made friends with the cops.

Q: How blonde are you?
A: 100% naturally, but these days I am darker

Q: Do you have a car?
A: A truck

Q: How long have you been in the county that you live in?
A: 24 years, Ive never even been out of the USA

Q: Friend you saw?
A: Georgiana, since she is sitting next to me.

Q: Friend you talked to?
A: Georgianna and Silile

Q: Person who called you?
A: Adam, my honey!

Q: Person you called?
A: My mommy

Q: Is?
A: Tuesday will be counter offering on a house!

Q: Got any plans?
A: Work, meeting with real estate agent.

Q: Dislikes about tomorrow?
A: Well I have to work, so hmmmmm......

Q: Number?
A: 16!

Q: Colour?
A: Blue

Q: Season?
A: Summer

Q: Missing someone?
A: Yes. My sisters, best friend and her kids

Q: Mood?
A: indifferent

Q: Wanting?
A: To be at home snuggled up in bed with my honey.

Q: Listening to?
A: Georgiana talk to an agent!

Q: Watching?
A: nothing really

Q: Worrying about?
A: Just the outcome of our house bidding....

Q: First thing you did this morning?
A: looked at Adam funny like I do every morning.

Q: Do you have anything bothering you?
A: My fathers current situation

Q: What's annoying you right now?
A: Bridezilla and her big ass wedding! Yep shes still planning it.

Q: What's the last movie you saw?
A: Ant Bully!

Q: Do you believe in long-distance relationships?
A: Ive never had one that worked.

Q: Is there a person who is on your mind right now?
A: Yes. A few people actually.

Q: Do you think that person is thinking of you too?
A: Well maybe one or two of them.

Q: Where is the last place you went?
A: Oh holy buckets, I dont know probably just to work so to Omaha!

Q: Do you have any siblings?
A: 4 younger brothers, 1 older sister, and 1 wonderful munchkin younger sister

Waiting....

So this weekend we have done a whole lot of hurry up and wait. Incase you are wondering why, we offered on a different house. This time a much nicer house near both of our families. It is a house we like a lot more than the one we originially offered on. I am trying very hard not to be excited, you know just incase they say no. Adam is ready to negotiate though, and this time he is really wanting to get this house. So we will see what happens! The sellers have until Monday at 6pm central time to respond to our offer! So lets all keep those fingers crossed!

Just for laughs I will tell you about our adventures at Kohls today. Taking Adam shopping for clothing for him is always challenging. He hates spending money that much. Well today there was just no getting around it. From day to day he wears dress clothing for work, so he doesnt wear blue jeans often. So the other night he was running around in his one and only good pair of blue jeans. Which shouldnt have been a problem, right? Well it was. When he decided to be silly and try to remove me from the chair I was sitting in, we heard it. RRRRRRRIIIIIIIIIPPPPPPPP!!!!!!!! Oh and it was not a small rip, no it was a big one. It went from one seem to the other right above his knee. So since the weather has been teasing us, trying to get cold, I convinced him to go buy new jeans today. Yeah what a trip. He took jeans in and stared at his butt for several minutes before he would show us what they looked like. Finally after around an hour he had a pair of jeans in hand, ready to be purchased! I swear he is soo picky! It was quite laughable though.

Edition #3

Thirteen Things I love about my boyfriend!!! 1. Even when I am less than cordial, he is always there for me and supportive! 2. When I have had a bad day he tries to do something nice for me. One time I had been super sick and when I got home from an especially crummy day, he had left the lights off then put a teddy bear, chicken noodle soup and a homemade card on the table for me to find when I got home. He was hiding in the closet video taping my reaction. I still love that teddy bear! 3. When I am sick, he takes care of me. He will make sure I have every thing I need, take my temperature, and just about anything else I may need. 4. At the beginning of every week, he sits down and sorts all my vitamins for me! Yep thats a good thing! If it wasnt for him, I would never get my vitamins taken! 5. Sometimes for no reason at all, he will bring me flowers! He is the only person to ever do that for me! 6. This past summer, he dared to take me to Chicago to watch baseball! This was mighty daring because is was the White Sox vs. Astros. Which at the time was a world series repeat!!! I am an Astros fan, so I was totally hated in that crowd, and every person who said something about it, he was ready to step in for me! It so could have gotten his ass kicked, but he stood up for me anyways!!! 7. He took me to my first opera this year. That was one of the coolest experiences ever! 8. I have these horrindous nightmares that I would not wish on anyone, not even my worst enemy. He will wake me up every time and let me know that it was just a dream which makes me feel so much better. 9. Thunderstorms... I was traumatized as a child when we were unable to leave our home and we rode out Hurricane Andrew. From that point forward (I was 10), I have never dealt with thunderstorms the same. He doesn't make fun of me or anything, he just tries to help me to get through them all. 10. He understands. I have a situation with my father that is rather uncomfortable that I generally choose not to share with the world. He just isnt accepted in the general public. He doesnt make me feel like my family should be shamed. Instead he tells me that it is my choice to deal with him the best way I can. He never ever has ridiculed my father, though I have told him enough to make him seriously hate the man. 11. He has dealt with my picky nature for a year with house hunting. Every time he has liked a house, I have hated it. We have totally loved just two houses. But chose not to take either. Now I am trying to be less picky on what I want. What about what he wants?? 12. He lets me drive his car when I dont want to drive my truck! I know thats silly, but I sometimes miss my little car. Thats when I swipe his keys! He never gives me a hard time or acts like Im gonna put a dent or a scratch on it. 13. He loves me!!!! Thats the most important one! He makes me feel all warm and fuzzy! He also knows my every fault, yet he never fails to point out where he thinks I am perfect! Links to other Thursday Thirteens!1. (leave your link in comments, I’ll add you here!)

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Now!

Sorry guys, Ive not posted in a few days. Its hectic around my home right now. Its final time at school! My school has quarters instead of semesters, so its more accelerated. Also I had two papers due for my Government class for Monday, and 4 for my Civ class for Friday. I decided to take my weekend to do all of those. Done except one paper! Wooohoo go me! Oh yeah and not to mention mounds of homework on the side of those spur of the moment papers.

Then on Friday, we made an offer on a house we have seen 3 times. So now its the hurry up and wait phase. We should have an answer from the seller by 1800 today! Im a bag of nerves, I think Adam is too! So we have been picking out things we need to get, things we would need to update, and such. Getting too far ahead of ourselves. But hey if they turn it down, theres always other houses. We just really like this one.

Work has been totally interesting. Some lady is pissed that she cant get the hours she wants, so she wants the temps to be gotten rid of! Hello thats me. So Im trying my best to do the best at my job! I need to be seen as an asset! I mean I would just go back to sales but I love my department, so I dont really want that to happen. So is life though, when it gives me lemons, I try to make lemonade.

Life has been totally hectic! Hopefully this will all stop soon! I just need a good nap! Hope you all are doing well!

Thursday Thirteen Edition #2

Thirteen Random things about me... 1. When I get really angry I will cry instead of yell. I really am not confrontational. It gets even worse if it is someone I love that I am angry with! 2. I cant stand to see some one bite their nails. It just grosses me out! I mean come one use a set of nail clippers or a file! 3. Instead of getting addicted to TV shows, now days I get addicted to commercials... You know the ones where there are actors with real people talking about their insurance? I sing along with Little Richard every time, and Adam just wants to throw something at me every time that one comes one... 4. I'm addicted to V8 with pickle juice, and its got to be spicy. I know it sounds gross but I love it! Yes this started as an accident. I got up one night, went to get a pickle and my juice. Well I was watching TV and pored the pickle juice instead of the V8. Well then I thought that there was no going back then. So now 8 years later or so, I still do it, worse my sisters do too.... 5. Probably the most girly thing that I do is my high heels. If Adam had one thing he would change about my habits, it would be my need to give shoes a home. I am in love with High heels! Next on my list of shoes to adopt, black or brown super pointy toed boots, and they need to be knee high!!! I sound like I am looking to adopt a pet don't I???? 6. I recently was introduced to mineral makeup by Adam's sister Sue. Now I am in love with it. Yes it can get pretty expensive, but its wonderful. I used to be so weird, compulsive about makeup removal, now if I fall asleep I don't have to worry about weather or not I will have a whole slew of acne in the morning. I never could do that before. I swear I have had maybe 3 pimples in the 8 months that I have used this makeup! 7. I probably tell Adam that I love him more often than I should, then I get frustrated when he laughs at me. Usually its more like a giggle, yep a giggle, but I get pretty frustrated. I some how became a silly girl all the sudden! 8. I don't really find myself attractive. In fact I really only like maybe two of my attributes, my eyes and my hands. I think I have pretty eyes, even though they are brown and that's generally boring. I love my hands, they remind me of my grandmother, long and slender hands that my mom calls piano hands. I am constantly cutting my finger nails, they just grow so fast that I cant keep up with them! 9. Ive always wanted to sky dive. I hate taking rides in airplanes, but I would love to jump out of one! Now how sick is that. 10. I am the only one of my mother's daughters that doesn't have a tattoo or a belly button piercing. The other two have both, not to mention two tattoos a piece. I just am not a fan of pain, nor am I a fan of needles. Sorry but unless its absolutely necessary, I don't want no needle in me... Who knows maybe one day I will change my mind... 11. If I could go any where in the world, I would travel to Australia. I have a great friend over there, Janelle. I would love to meet her and see various things like the Sydney Opera House. I would also, yet another way I am a big dork, love to go to the Australia Zoo. I loved the Crocodile Hunter, OK! 12. I am a freak over little yellow duckies! Hell who am I kidding, I am a freak over any little duckie! I have about 100 of them, not including my rug in my bathroom, shower curtain and soap dispenser! I know I'm a freak. 13. If I won the lottery, I would still drive my old truck, go to work on a regular basis and shop at walmart. Money would just make my life a little more comfortable and support my home for homeless shoes.... Links to other Thursday Thirteens!1. (leave your link in comments, I’ll add you here!)

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Happy Halloween!

I just wanted to take the time to tell everyone who reads this, HAPPY HALLOWEEN! Of coarse I was at work, so no fun for me, but hey thats ok. After tonight I am off three days anyway! Yippee!
So I made Adam a card, while I was totally bored at work tonight! I found the funniest turkey on a website, cut it out, colored it and made him a card. Then on the back colored and pasted a turtle in stead of say a halmark sign.... Now since you are all thinking I am silly, let me explain the turkey and turtle. I have this habit of hiding under the blankets, and having a hole where my little nose and such pokes out for air at night. (making it hard to share blankets) So he calls me his little turtle. He on the other hand is really good at bowling! If you get three strikes, its called a turkey. Well he got them so often, that I started calling him my turkey soon after we started dating seriously. Its stuck. So the card has said funky, funny looking turkey on it. On the front it has little red hearts all around it and says "here's a turkey.... (inside) for my turkey." Then on the back my turtle with "made by turtle industries."
Yep I was being silly. But it was good for taking up some time. Plus I know he will keep it and laugh at it. Which really was the goal. To get a good laugh that is.
Anyways if you want to see funny turkey..... Here he is!
http://www.sandpoint.com/Entertainment/images/coloringbook/turkeycolorbook.gif
Dang thing looks like he swallowed a golf ball!!

Things that have made me think...

At work, I am on a committee for my department. Our particular activity for the month is a food drive. We have been making posters all night. I never knew my hands could hurt so much from coloring! Goodness they are turning our pretty though! Im very proud of this project!

Lately my lovely boyfriend, Adam, has been overly needy. This is not like him. I get ready to go to work, he asks why I have to leave. I always respond with some quick jab about us buying a house! He just frowns that cute puppy dog frown, then whines about me being gone. I get to work, he sends sweet emails about how he misses me. Yep, hes gone mad! No, really, I love it. He's never been so sweet and adorable. I hope the cute boyfriend stays! Maybe he will even start cleaning up the house tooo.....

Bridezilla... Enough said, but wait theres more! Her birthday was Sunday. My baby sister, the munchkin is fuming! So Ive mentioned before that she doesnt have a job, what I havent mentioned is that she has borrowed a whole lot of money from Munchkin. Well seems that her fiance(who was in on the borrowed money since they were both released from jobs at the same time and live together) got her a watch that has a real diamond in it and spent a ton of money on it! Hello, baby on the way! Where are the priorities???

House! We may have found the one! So excited, our friend is going to see it on Wednesday to make sure that theres no electrical or structural damage. Since he is a contractor, this is very helpful. Not to mention that he is Adam's brother in law, so hes really just looking out for our best interest! Plus hes totally A-D-D so he will be rip, roaring, and ready to go on the improvements I would want to do. Hes really good at around the home stuff!! Thank God for Blair!

I fell in love the other day... With a dog! More like a horse, but a dog. Her name was Kitty Cat, she is a 15 month old Great Dane. She had spots like a milk cow! Oh my goodness, she was just so calm, sweet and beautiful. I dont need kids, I think I want her! Adam says that I would probably never be able to have friends over, for her sheer size! I guess people are scared of big dogs! She was only 115 pounds, shes still go a while to grow....

Thursday Thirteen Edition #1

Thirteen things I am truly thankful for..... 1. I have a great family! I just don't know what I would do with out my sisters, mom, step dad and brothers! They really are the best, even though I complain about at least one of them constantly. 2. I have the best boyfriend in the world, Adam is absolutely wonderful and puts up with everything that I can throw his direction. 3. I am healthy! Yes this is a big deal to me. Half of my family(paternal side) all have died slow painful deaths. This mainly was caused by the need for cigarettes, but there have been many other reasons. I am so thankful that all my tests for various things came back as HEALTHY! 4. I have two of the best friends in the whole world! Kristy Sue and Kevin Andrew. They have stood by my side through it all! I am so thankful to have them in my life. 5. I have a good job, even though right now I am not motivated at all, that keeps my bills paid and allows me to have the comforts I need. 6. I am finally back in school. Yes I'm on my 3rd semester, but it was a really hard thing to finally go back, which was in large part the workings of my lovely counterpart. That of coarse puts me back at my Adam (no. 2). 7. The good Lord has blessed me with many talents, even if I don't use them. I can sing, dance, write poetry (some of which I have had published) and speak well in a public setting. I count these things, used or not, as a great attribute to who I am and my character. 8. Elvis! Yep I said it! I use Elvis music to pull me out of a funk. I can turn on Elvis and be transformed, even if temporarily, into a very hopeful person. Yes I know that can be rather dorky but I do love him! 9. I have a home to call mine, even if it is not a house, yet. I am working on that one, Adam and I just haven't been able to agree on the right home yet. For the meantime though, I am thankful for this apartment that we share. 10. My two beautiful God-daughters, Katherine and Jaden. They always manage to make me smile. I do so miss them! 11. Adams Family! They are absolutely the best people that I could ever wish for in an extended family situation. They are always so kind to me, respectful and just plain fun to be around! I really do love his family, his sisters in particular! 12. My past, though it has been dark, cold and down right depressing at times, it is what has made me who I am today. I don't know that I would change any of it given the chance. 13. My family here in the blogging community! It really does help me to know that there are people out there, whom I may never meet, that will take the time to share their experience. I love the camaraderie that we have formed! I really look forward to reading your postings and comments! Thank you for reading mine too!!! Links to other Thursday Thirteens!1. (leave your link in comments, I’ll add you here!)

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Rocky Mountains

I just really love this picture. Adam took it on his way to Portland, Oregon earlier in the year. It is of the Rocky Mountains. Isnt it amazing that from above, even the largest of things, seem small..... Its amazing what God can create!

Today

So today, once again, I got just about nothing done. I lounged around, did nothing. Well besides school and lunch.
I did how ever manage to get birthday cards for Bridezilla, Katherine(my beautiful goddaughter), My Grandmother, and my other little goddaughter Jaden. So that was my day. Nothing. I miss my girls though. The thought of my Katherine being 8 years old as of today (10/19) is so astonishing to me. She is the reason I grew up in the first place. I didnt want my best friend to have to grow up alone. So I did too. Gosh I miss that girl. Jaden is 1 as of Friday. I still havent even gotten to meet the kid. That just kills me. I so love that family. Hell they have been my family for so long. I miss them soo bad.
So today I was super, mega bitch. Every time Adam suggested something to do, I shot it down. Like pms or something, except Im generally not like that. Part of me wants to just go cuddle up and sleep. But I know I will just lay there. Sleep never really does come.
Finally I gave up and went to a movie with Adam. Yep Im a sucker for cartoons. We went to see the Ant Bully. Totally cracked me up. We really enjoyed it. Im glad we went. I have been feeling so down, that I needed to just crack up for no reason. I love to sit in a movie theatre and hear the kids laugh. Nothing is more honest than childrens laughter. Its almost contagious. For a guy who really isnt a fan of children, Adam loves that too. He amazes me sometimes. He really does.
Well Im just gonna go try to relax. I dont know why I cant shake this sickening depression that set in a few weeks ago. I will be fine one minute, then the next I am weighed down again. Adam seems to notice it too. I need a shrink!

Activities for Today

So I had alot on my plate today, but it really was like a few things to do. I had to go to school this morning, which only turned into a 45 minute endeavor. We had a Government Midterm. Mr. Nich allowed us a 5x8 index card (i think thats the size) to have notes to use on the test. Let me tell you, I had about 10 pages of notes on the front and back of that card. I wrote soooo small. But I had every single answer on it. It only took me 30 minutes of our 2 hours to do the test. My teacher said I had teriffic notes! I am so excited. I know I would have blanked out with out the note card. I am glad he let us do that.
On to the next topic. I also had to go get my title switched to my name on my truck! That took me forever because, I went home to get my insurance card out of my truck ( I was in Adams car). Well it turns out my card had expired, like two days ago. So I had to go track down my insurance guy. Well Larry was at lunch, so we had to kind of hurry up and wait. We went to try to find something appealing to eat, with no luck since we couldnt agree on anything. Well finally we got a copy of my insurance card, and set off to the DOT. Got to the office, it had moved. So we ended up driving to the new one. Once I got there it took 35 minutes, but the truck is now officially mine!! Exciting stuff!
Well for about 3 weeks I have put of doing the mountain of laundry in my bedroom, bathroom and living room. Ok so there was a whole range of laundry mountains in my apartment. But by 1730 this afternoon, I had it all done! Now I just need to get off my lazy butt tomarrow and vaccuum and dust and all that nifty stuff. I try to get all that done once a week, but with all the excitment healthwise, and my baby sister home, it hasnt gotten done in like 3 weeks. So Ive been lazy, Shoot me.
Now I am at work until 0230 in the morning. Whoopie!

This week! All the bruises!

Well what can I say? Its been a pretty good week. My baby sister, the munchkin, AKA Hope, has been home. She leaves again for her base in North Carolina on Sunday. But I am glad she was able to come home! Gosh its been good to see her.
Tuesday we went to the SAC (strategic air command) museum just our side of Lincoln. That was alot of fun. I couldnt stop walking into things. Literally! You know those waist high, lamp posts? I walked smack into one, Hope just died laughing. She was rolling on the ground cracking up, to which my mom checks to see if shes ok, but Im the one that did it! Then inside the museum, I start looking at planes, I walked head first into one of the wings! Hello stupid pay attention. Last but not least, for the day, I went to put my bag around my shoulder, and smacked my lip with my cell phone! So it was a great day with many bruises.
Today I was at moms, we were working on Fried Green Tomatoes, and I ran smooth into moms foot stool. I now have a huge bruise on my right knee! Go me! My boyfriend, Adam, now thinks I beat myself! Haha!
Thank the good Lord I am stuck in classrooms for 5 hours tomarrow. You cant hurt yourself sitting down now can you???? If you can, then I am in the running for the klutz queen title previously held by mom! Oh yeah and I smacked my head super hard on my truck door getting out of it to go to class on Wednesday! I am so damn good!!!!
Have I ever mentioned that my mom isnt the kiss my wounds kinda woman. She just tells me to put some ice on it, no kiss is gonna help it! No matter how many times I put it in her face, I have to deal with it! Haha! She makes me laugh!

always the bridesmaid....

Ever heard that old saying, "always the bridesmaid, never the bride"? That would be me. Why is it that Ive had these super long relationships, and nothing as of yet has ever really materialized? My older sister however, is on her second marriage in the term of these six years of my relationships. Is there something I am doing wrong that the men I have loved and the one I love now, has no interest in a marriage type future?

Im feeling like the eternal bridesmaid at the moment. Lisa, and three of my other friends all got engaged over the last weekend. Im kinda like, ok when is it gonna be my turn. I know that I am gonna be with Adam, but why do I feel like this? Why do I feel like I wanna pull my hair out every time a girlfriend or sister (lisa) flashes their pretty little ring in my face!

I am now dealing with her sending pictures of her trying on wedding gowns! Damnit! I just want to scream:

"YOU CANT HAVE THIS HUGE, CRAZY WEDDING THAT YOU SHOULD ONLY HAVE THE RIGHT TO ON YOUR FIRST WEDDING! YOU ARENT A VIRGIN, DONT WEAR WHITE! YOU CANT MAKE ME BE THE BLUSHING BRIDESMAID AND DAMNIT ITS MY TURN TO GET MARRIED NOT YOURS! THIS IS FREAKING RIDICULOUS!"

But the calm side of me isnt saying it! I just hate that Ive put so much time into being in serious relationships, and each time I get left in the cold. Not that Im not in a great relationship now, I am. I just have to wait and whine and cry, then hopefully one day I will be the one that is getting married. You know that shes so damn happy and she knows how I wish it were me. But it will never really matter because she will always be the one that gets the goods.

I guess I should settle in to the idea that I will always be the bridesmaid, and never be the bride. What really bothers me is that when it is my turn, my family will have already lost the luster of the beautiful ceremony because my sister has beat it in the ground twice!!!!!!! GRRRR!

Its been a while!

Well its been forever since I logged on! I have had so much going on. Getting ready to start school again for the year. Works been crazy and I am getting ready to move to a new apartment. Adam and I are looking for a house, and we are nuts.
Both of us are doing well in our jobs, and have a great relationship. I hate how sometimes my moods and attitudes can make everything complicated,but some how he ends up hold me up to my abilities.
Hope is still over seas. She is supposed to come home some time soon, but no home date yet. I am sooo ready for her to come home!!!!

Todays thoughts

Hey every one! I havent been on in a while. Things on the home front are going quite well. The munchkin called the other day. She says its hotter than hell in that desert but beautiful. She is in a small country outside of Iraq called Qatar. I dont care how beautiful it is, I want her to be back home. But she is doing her job, and serving her country. What a good kid. I do miss her though!!!
So Adam was in a car accident yesterday. A metal bar deflected off of the truck infront of him smashing that trucks windshield. Then that bar hit his hood, cracking his windshield and then some how bounced around and shattered his driver side window. Amazingly enough he came away with no injuries accept a small cut on his left wrist.
It really scares me to think that with in a blink of an eye he could have been gone. I dont knwo what I would do if something happened to him at this point. I am rather attached to him. He makes up such a major part of who I am right now. He makes me laugh, smile and helps me when I need some one to be there. I love him so much more than I ever thought was possible. Right now, for so many reasons, I am counting my blessings.