Happiness

So last night I found out that Toby is in New Mexico with his new girlfriend. Funny thing is Im not bothered much by it. Chana told me that was where he was. I am not really surprised by it but I cant say as it really bothers me. It kind of frees me a little more to go after what I want. Chana told her mother that I started dating again. Shes proud of me. Antonia told me that she thinks Toby will run back to me as soon as he realizes what a shit hes being. I dont want that. I want to explore what could be else where. Im totally loving the time Im spending with another man and well I dont need Toby for my happiness. I still stand by what I said to him though. Love is indeed the condition in which anothers happiness is essential to your own. He says hes happy. Im smiling again and to tell you the truth he has nothing to do with that and it feels great. Im excited about life again. I owe it to Alex.