You live

I am filled with the presence of some one I never knew,
Though they were of my own flesh.

I feel slightly taken aback observing a playing child,
Knowing mine never got this chance.

Sadness engulfs me,
Imparting tears to pass threw my eyes.

I cant help but think I gave consent to this,
I allowed the danger to become a factor.

You may have made it here,
Had it not been for my inadequate judgements.

Forever I will live with my guilt,
Knowing you may have had a chance if I had just not had those drinks.

I see you in the eyes of every small child,
Wondering what my life would be like now if only I had you to hold.

The thing I regret the most is that you never got the chance,
And I took that from you.

I have been told that I was not to be faulted,
Yet I feel I could have done more to protect you.

There are days dear baby,
That I will feel you all around me.

Feeling your total presence,
Missing out on what could have been.

You live in the eyes of all the small children I see,
But most of all you live in my heart.