James Earl

So I have a friend. James Earl. Thats my boy. We been friends for a long ass time. Well we have never met face to face but we talk. We talk about every thing. Theres no secrets between us when it comes to my life. I know hes got his. But he knows all the little hurtful details of my life. Toby absolutely hated him. He always believed there was something going on between us. Nope never. James is my best buddy. He is my favorite guy friend by far. When I am low I call James. When I need a shoulder to cry on and a smile, I call James. I have a slight bit of insomnia. He works late nights. So we talk all night sometimes. Well now my baby sister, dear Hope, thinks I want him. Hes great I love my James Earl. But I dont know that I have ever thought about him in a nature other than my best friend. Like today for instance. I had a bad day. I returned Tobys stuff to his moms. Well he said Chana had my stuff. She doesnt. He never gave it to her. Well. When Doug and I left I was balling my eyes out. But God it was good to see those girls. I missed them. His mom was so sweet. She was telling me I could do better and all. But God I loved him. I still do. I always will. Well when I got home I checked out the caller ID. James Earl had called. Natuarally I call him back the second I am awake again. Well we talked for a few hours. He made me feel better just by being a friend and talking bout other shit. But of coarse he cracks with " you know you been trying to get rid of that boy since the day you met me." What a dork. Damn I aint gonna lie the boy is hot. Hes got a super sexy voice. But I havent ever imagined us together. Not conciously. Dont forget James Earl we have Paris.... (inside and personal.) James is one of those people I just love to peices. He is some one any man in my life will have to accept. We tell each other we love each other. Just not like that. But 90% of our conversations end in I love you. Now Hopes all wanting to talk to him about her we are made for each other shit. The consolation in James Earl is I would be safe and loved. He is a friend. He is a soul mate of some sorts I guess. We share so much. But God I dont know what the hell I am saying. But Hope you are wrong!!!! Had to say it you know it!