sad

Its really sad when his 12 year old neice asks me what is going on. I had to tell her not to be mad at her uncle cause he loves her no matter what happens between us. God this hurts so bad but I cant hide. I dont know what to say to her and she has so much to say. She says that in her eyes I am her aunt. But I cant make that real for her. Im so lost in my own world right now its sad. I dont know where he is or what hes doing. His sister thinks there is someone else. I am like blown away with even half of that thought. I just dont know where my life is at the moment....