Christmas Time!

This is at our Holiday party for work. We had a freaking blast! Note the cute puppy infront of me, didnt stay.... We did White Elephant gift exhchange. I ended up getting 3 presents stollen!

This green seasonal pillow is the present I finally ended up with! Yep thats a look of eww this things ugly on my face......

And now onto the games!!! This was the "mini rollercoaster" which was alot of fun!

Me, Christy and Heather!! Go faster!!!

Look Mom! No Hands!!! Wheee!!!

From Left to Right: Sarah, Kellie, Christy, Heather, Me!!, Danna. Having a good time away from work!!

My favorite picture all night! Me and Sarah B. I really had fun!

Houston, Its a no go!

Ok so we got the sellers counter again today. They still havent budged, so I told them where to kiss it. So we are still on the house market. Looks like we wont be out of this apartment for a while. But thats how it goes I suppose. That just means that I get to put up my Christmas Tree tomarrow!!! Yehaw! Yay for Christmas! I love decorating, had we gotten that house, I would have closed on December 21st so we wouldnt have put up the tree. Now Im excited about that even though I am disappointed with the idea of losing that house. But hey it happens, and we will find a house when the house is right.

Stuff

So I am a total idiot. My schedule at work changed recently. On Sundays I work from 630pm to 0230 am. Well my previous schedule had me arriving at 530pm. So for some reason I kicked into stupid gear this afternoon. I was here and working a whole stinking hour early. This is totally a no no in my workplace. So I really dont look forward to the slap on the hand Im gonna get tomarrow. I feel so stupid. Every one else has told me to relax, its not like I mess up on a regular basis. But damn that was just uncalled for.

On the positive front. Adam and I had another house showing this last week. We are seeing that house again this after noon. We may even make an offer on it. So lets all cross our fingers again! With any luck we will get this one. I mean I like the house, its cute, its rather large. But it doesnt have a basement. Which if you live in the midwest, you know this is just standard to have. Im excited all the same. Its even got a fireplace! Yoohooo!!!

Christmas is around the corner. While I hate the commerciality that it has become about. I do love the holiday season. I love decorating the tree, I love the smells, the music. I love it all. I dont, however, love the crazy ranting of what to get for every one. Though I do love to see the joy on their faces when they all open their presents. That alone makes it all worth it to me. I have yet to decide what to get for Adam. But my sisters and his sisters are taken care of. Although I know what I am getting from Adam already, that is if we get this house. Im getting furniture. Shopping for him is totally hard for me. He wants something, he just buys it. So Im thinking, practicle. This is how he likes his gifts anyways. I will probably get him some new blue jeans, socks and shirts. But for his big present, I am sooo stumped!!! I had been contemplating power tools, but I cannot keep up with what he does and doesnt have! Jeeze! Any ideas???

Christmas

Well we only have a few days now. I am so broke it is ridiculous. I still have to do some shopping too thats the bad part. I have just enough in my bank account to do my rent and my truck. So I am dead broke.
I like the holidays but the expense sucks.

Christmas is only 9 days away. No I am not excited but for the moment I only have to get three more presents. That way I have everyone in my house covered for the stuff we are doing on Christmas Eve. I still need to do something though for Adam's sisters. Other than them I dont have to do much. Just stocking stuffers for Adam.
Next.... One of my favorite people here at work is getting ready to have a baby. She is not due until January 9th. But she is dialated to 3 cm right now. So we could have a kid at any point now. Another lady here was having her baby today. So we are baby happy in this department. Oh I love babies.

All Shook Up

And today I have not much to say as of yet. I dont know yet what my day will bring. Yeah sure its after 4:00 pm and all but I have so much left for the day. I will be talking to the munchkin on my lunch break. Then she has a plan of some sort. So I have a feeling it has to do with surprising our mommy. I wont know until after 7:00 or so tonight.

Astros update! We are up 1-0 on NCLS championship divisional playoffs. And oh isnt victory sweet when its against the Braves. Its a repeat of the playoffs last year. First round anyways. I need to check the schedule for the next two games but if they win this next one then there will be no more. This set is best of five. So Go ASTROS!

Now Im open to ideas. Adam is way ahead of me on Christmas. Yes we are already shopping for Christmas. The sooner we can get it out of the way the better, right. Well. I know hes already gotten me two different things. I dont even have an idea on what to get him!! His sisters are going to help me out but I am open to any suggestions with in reason. Hes such a complex person and if I ask what he wants he just says he wants me to be back in school. Ok well for his birthday I took him at word when he said not to do anything. But that was so not cool, he thought I would do something anyways. So not meaning to I hurt him alot. So I wanna avoid that at any cost. I just dont know what to do for him even though I have been with him almost six months. Help! Any ideas will be appreciated.

Holiday Blues

Ok so I got past the first hump in the holiday season. I cried a bit. I walked into Wandas and when some one asked why I was late I tried really hard not to cry my eyes out. I love those people. They are a great family to have love me so much. Hell the Gaskins and the Johnsons are the best substitute family any girl could ask for. But damn I miss my family. I miss my mom and my dad. I miss my mean ass sisters and brother. I miss watching those stupid parades on Thanksgiving morning while mom and dad were cooking. I miss the football games and my dad yelling at the tv. The traditional Cowboys Thanksgiving Day game. The one that always got my dad so fired up and still does. I miss the day after every one huddling around the TV watching the even more important game of UT vs. A&M for the years bragging rights. The decorating for Christmas that mom and us girls started either Thanksgiving afternoon or the next day. I miss this stuff. I miss my family so damn bad. I just dont know how I will get threw Christmas. Damn its gonna be hard. Last year the great asshole of my life was the reason I wasnt so lonely. Even though I worked. This year I dont know whats gonna keep my mind off the fact I that I have no one even remotely related to me. I wish my baby sister could come down. I have to work on Christmas as I do every other holiday on the calendar. But gosh it would be nice to be with some one that I am that close to. Kristy is gonna be busy with Katherine and Joey. So I really wont even have her. Im slightly out of place. I hate the uncomfortable feeling that comes with Christmas. Man I miss my mommy....

This week is gonna be busy. Starting tomarrow I have to work every day this week. There is no telling what time I will get home tomarrow. It should be a busy day. Last year i didnt get out of there until after nine. I go in at eleven in the morning and Im scheduled until seven but that doesnt mean I will get to go home that soon. I should go to sleep early in all honesty but I wont. I know if I do I wont be able to pull my one a.m. shift Friday night. James will probably try to get me to go to bed early tonight. I have to be up by about nine in the morning or Im not gonna be to work on time. I will do it though. I have only been late to work one time in the entire time I worked there. I dont make that a habit. Well Im off to bed.

The coming holidays....

Oh today sucked. I dont know what to do with all this lonely time I have. I am going crazy with it. Men are the pit of my despair right now. I am missing Toby. Not the love we shared but the friendship. God I miss calling him just to say hi. I miss being able to cry on him when I needed a shoulder. Right now I litterally have no one. I have so much on my chest I need to get out. So much that needs to be said. But I have no one of my own to talk to. Christmas and Thanksgiving are coming up. It is hitting me hard that I am gonna have no one. Last year what kept me from hurting was that Toby came and spent both with me. I had all but mom on Thanksgiving. But this year I will have no one. Yes I love the Johnsons. They are my family. But I am still an outsider. The idea of a lonely holiday season is really stressing me out. Christmas is depressing when you are alone. Last year I had Toby to shop for. This year I have Pepper. Wow what fun. Shop for the dog. Hell he dont even know what is going on. I have a feeling this week will be just as depressing and bad as last week was. Wooohoo for the lonely girl in the corner.....