Ok so I got past the first hump in the holiday season. I cried a bit. I walked into Wandas and when some one asked why I was late I tried really hard not to cry my eyes out. I love those people. They are a great family to have love me so much. Hell the Gaskins and the Johnsons are the best substitute family any girl could ask for. But damn I miss my family. I miss my mom and my dad. I miss my mean ass sisters and brother. I miss watching those stupid parades on Thanksgiving morning while mom and dad were cooking. I miss the football games and my dad yelling at the tv. The traditional Cowboys Thanksgiving Day game. The one that always got my dad so fired up and still does. I miss the day after every one huddling around the TV watching the even more important game of UT vs. A&M for the years bragging rights. The decorating for Christmas that mom and us girls started either Thanksgiving afternoon or the next day. I miss this stuff. I miss my family so damn bad. I just dont know how I will get threw Christmas. Damn its gonna be hard. Last year the great asshole of my life was the reason I wasnt so lonely. Even though I worked. This year I dont know whats gonna keep my mind off the fact I that I have no one even remotely related to me. I wish my baby sister could come down. I have to work on Christmas as I do every other holiday on the calendar. But gosh it would be nice to be with some one that I am that close to. Kristy is gonna be busy with Katherine and Joey. So I really wont even have her. Im slightly out of place. I hate the uncomfortable feeling that comes with Christmas. Man I miss my mommy....
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