Im feeling antsy. I havent called Toby in a few days. Or at least I havent tried. So Im now going insane. I used to call just to hear his voice on the voicemail. Now its like hmm. Im taking advice from James. Dont call him and make him miss you. Ok Im trying. Im hoping it works. Im driving myself insane. Hes been gone for 15 days and Im going nuts. It wouldnt be so damned bad if I didnt have a reminder of him every where I looked. But I do. Hes like every where. I open the closet or my dresser and theres some of his clothes. I get in my car and theres stuff. I look at our dog or my key chain. There are so many little reminders of us everywhere. He doesnt have that problem. He just got a new truck so he has no memories of me being in it. He has nothing of me unless I dont know about it. Cept maybe a few pictures here and there. Im so bad hurting its ridiculous. I need a break.
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