My nights have been rather nice the last few weeks. James and I sit up and talk most of the time. We are trying to figure out when the two of us can get together. Hope says we are mushy. Ok if telling each other I love you alot is mushy then yeah we are. But we know what we feel for each other and we arent afraid to admit that. Besides hes been in the back of my head for a long time. I just relyed on a connection to some one else. I just cant believe how long he has loved me with out saying anything. If he had I think I would have given up on Toby a long time ago. But James is so sweet. He is really wonderful. He thinks Im not gonna like him once we are actually together. I have news for you James Earl. I love you! I am gonna love you no matter what. So you are wrong. I love you! Any ways. Im very happy these days. I am sleeping better and living life with a sensation that has never been there before. I dont know how else to explain it.