Lance Berkman greets Carlos Beltran after his game winning homerun in game 4 of the NLCS.... 

Lance Berkman hits a homerun in game 4 of the NLCS against the Cardinals... 

Craig Biggio is called out trying to steal 2nd.... game 4 of NLCS goes to the Astros 6-5 

Roger Clemens, the man of the night, takes the win for the Houston Astros! He played 7 innings!! Thanks for the great pitching! Game score is 5-2! Series stands at 2-1 Cardinals. Lets go Astros! 

Jeff Bagwell Breaks his bat during game 3 of the NLCS! 

Carlos Beltran hits another homerun for the NLCS against the Cardinals in game 3!!! 

Brad Lidge game closer for the Houston Astros! Game 3 eighth inning in the NLCS 

Jeff Bagwell congratulates Carlos Beltran!!! Game 3 of the NLCS 

Lance Berkman hits a homerun in game 3 of the NLCS!!! 

Game three of the NLCS winners the Houston Astros!!!! score 5-2! Go Astros!! 

Visions of White Dodges

Over the coarse of the night I had the same huge white diesel dodge pickup truck come threw my parking lot and sit four times. The damn thing was so much like Tobys new truck I just wanted to cry. The one time it about knocked the breath out of me.. Every time I start doing good something reminds me of him. Katherine asked me a ton of questions the other night. That about broke me. She wants him home for her birthday. What I cant make her understand that I cant do that for her. God I still love him. Why do I have to be the one to hurt? I want my life back. I want to stop being the shell of a person that I am currently. Any time a guy asks for my number I shoot him down. Like I am not single or something. But my heart still completely belongs to some one else and I am hurting. No matter what I say to myself I cant get past a future that was planned and ready to happen.. How is it that when you have something that is so perfect it can get screwed up in a blink of an eye? I have just about stopped sleeping until I am so worn out I have to sleep. Otherwise I am haunted in my dreams causing me to wake up crying. I know the people around me are worried but God what am I supposed to say? I am feeling alone, cast aside, and I have this deep rift in my heart and soul I dont that will ever heal... Mom keeps telling me that it does go away. That the pain will fade. That one day I will realize its gone. What if that never happens because he was the one true love of my life? I think I have been passed up for an opportunity that another woman took in such a short time that I just want to go lay in the middle of the road somewhere. I know though that I would not be doing anyone a favor with that so it would be a waste of time. Im so scared that now I will be alone for the rest of my life. You know I used to love bed time. Now I dread it. I know hes cuddled up to that woman and well I crawl in to an empty cold bed wishing he was here. I am so damned pathetic. I cant even get past a man that stomped on my heart and killed my spirit. Instead I find myself wishing it was all a bad dream. God I wish that my life would start looking up. I cant handle much more. I am on the verge of a break down. I am trying to drown out all the ideas of Christmas and Thanksgiving and painful lonliness. I just want to crawl in a hole...

Carlos Beltran is greeted at home plate by team mate Jeff Bagwell.... Game 2 of the NLCS goes to the Cardinals 6-4 but we still have a chance... 

Beltran, man of the post season.... Hits another Solo homerun!!! Game 2 NLCS 

Pete Munro was game 2s starting pitcher for the Astros... 

Jose Vizcaino meets Morgan Ensberg at Homeplate to congratulate him on his homerun.... 

Morgan Ensberg watches his solo homerun in game 2 of the NLCS against the Cardinals... 

Chad Harville reacts to giving up his second homerun to the Cardinals for the night... 

Phil Garner watches unhappily from the dugout as we are behind in game 2 of the NLCS.. Cheer up Phil we play at home the next two and remember the three of our best pitchers are playing!!! 

Dan Miceli in game 2 of the NLCS we lost to the Cardinals 6-4 good game... 

Phil Garner, Roger Clemens and Andy Pettitte watch the rest of the Astros play game 1 against the St. Louis Cardinals for the NLCS. Clemens and Pettitte are two of the best pitchers in the league....