why?

Why is it that we never see it coming? Why do tears never seem to help? Why do the innocent always seem to be the one affected?
Yes Im feeling a tad bitter tonight. I've lost so many in the last few months. Tonight I learned of another. A friend of mine, whom always made me laugh, was hit by a drunk driver after assisting a friend who had a flat tire. Now you tell me just how freaking fair that was??? Yes I am angry. She was doing something good, what did she get for it? She got killed! The worst part for me, her funeral is tomarrow, I will be here. I will be three states away crying my eyes out while they all say good bye.
I am so tired of all my friends dying at such young ages. I know I just said it, but, its just not fair!!!!
Maegen was a wonderful person, she was smart, funny and super talented. This was her senior year of high school. She was a volunteer fire fighter. She has two brothers who gave her a hell of a hard time, but loved her so much. Her mom just recently got married again. Her dad is a pretty neat guy too. Every one who came around her couldnt help but catch her infectious smile and laugh at her silliness.
I LOVE YOU MAEGEN.

I know that sometimes I am hard to be around. I dont know how to deal with myself sometimes. Today started out great. I got home from work, it was even better. But now I sit here contemplating where it went wrong.