Cars and School....

Oh the woes of having to buy a new car. I am in this position. I have been looking for right at a month now. So I went ahead and applied for a loan. Yeah I have no credit though so did the bank even give me a second thought? Nope. So I have to do it on my own.
Until yesterday I had my Daddy Bills car. I knew I needed to give it back. So I gave it back for the weekend at least on Friday night. I figured I didnt need a car until today to get to work anyways. So last night Adam and I went out with his new brother in law. I love Blair hes the coolest. Well we were all just kinda getting drunk and gambling. Yeah we all went and wasted time on the ever occupying penny slots. Adam and I can play all freakin night on ten dollars.
Anyways like I was saying, the three of us were sitting around totally wasting money. Afterwards we were all feeling the alcohol just a little too much so we decided to eat at the casino. So we have dinner at 3:00 in the morning. The subject of my car comes up. This is just totally depressing to me. Blair looks up and says "Amanda I have my old Ford Ranger. Can you drive a stick?" I was like uh huh. Cause I learned on a manual transmission. So.... After about an hour of talking he offered to let me buy his truck. Even better hes letting me drive it for a while until I decide if I want this truck. Ok well, I have had this truck for a day now and I like it. Its got a few flaws that are minor and easy to fix. He is gonna put a new 4 wheel drive switch in it for me. Since winter is coming up and I may need it.
So I am excited cause my car woes may be over. See what would I do with out Adam? And have I ever mentioned that I love his family? They really are wonderful people. These are people that I dont know where I would be with out. Adam, mainly, but his family is so wonderful and supportive. Im starting school in the winter and Blair is gonna tutor me when I need it in Algebra. Even though Adam is the human calculator, Blair is gonna do it so that I can get frustrated but with it being him Im not gonna get all upset and feel stupid. As if I was with Adam, I would feel inferior because he is soo smart. But when it comes to writing a paper he is really good. I on the other hand used to be good at writing essays and reports. Now Im so out of practice, Im lucky if this blog finds any good favor in it.
So I am totally nervous about school. Yeah I still have a few months before I start but the closer it gets the more I want to jump out a window. I have that itch. Im afraid I am gonna fail. I dont handle failure very well at all. I have always been a bit of a perfectionist with little room for error when it comes to learning. I like to make sure I know everything to the best of my abilities. I figure theres no point in being in a classroom if you are not gonna try. Dont just show up to take up a seat in the class. Thats just ridiculous, not only does a non participative, non caring student waste space, they make every one else dumber with their presence. Maybe thats harsh, but I cant stand a student that is just there to say there were there. So I am serious about learning, shoot me.
Ok guys Im getting out of here. I have some work to do. Later all!