So Many Things to Say

So here it is about 7 weeks later. I have had a few good days, a lot of bad days. Some of those days in the middle of the fence. So heres whats going on health wise.

My EEG came back normal, with one exception. It showed a slowing of the left temporal lobe. For any one who is not saavy on what that means, this is the section of the brain that controls facial movement and recognition. Because of this, we set up an MRI.

Before the MRI, I also had an Echocardiogram. Totally cool to watch. Learned at this point that I am allergic to sonogram gel. That was kind of interesting. This came back with nothing of concern. What ever that means.

After that was the MRI, if you havent had one you are lucky! All I can say is if I you are closterphobic, its the most unnerving experience in the world! My doctor called me with results 5 days later, his words were, "Well Miss Moore, you have a beautiful brain." Ha. So nothing there.

So in the mean time we have done lots of research on the symptoms that I have been experiencing for the last two months. So now we will be running more tests to see if we can figure out why I am still having the problems. These days it doesnt take much more than grocery shopping to wear me out completely. My poor roommates joke that I went from young to old in 8 weeks. I think they may have a point. I love them.

In the mean time we have a few ideas on things to check. So far the most likely culprit, because I match the symptoms to a T, is an autoimmune disease called Addison's Disease. If you want to look it up the Mayo Clinic has the most comprehensive, easy to read information. Luckily it is highly treatable, but I still need several rounds of tests specifically to find out if that is what this is. Its just an idea, but like I said I match its symptoms just about 100%. So its the next thing Dr Sundell wants to look into.

Its nice to know that the Drs are not just brushing this off and we will get an answer. So other than being tired and dizzy all the time, I am doing much better.

As for my heart. My emotional status. Its still in his hands. I havent heard his voice in weeks. I miss him so much I hurt. I can see his face everytime I close my eyes. I have that same terrible recurring dream, over and over.

I feel as if there is a huge hole in my heart. Its amazing how I wore a smile for all those months, just to be a constant frowning fool. I just wish it was so different.