Ok so I am not in the best of moods. I am putting my life into a slight perspective. I have Kristy and Lisa that I cant have in the same house obviously. So I am guessing that I have to chose to be happy with them. I am thinking the only way to have them both means I cant be anywhere near either of them. I have Kristy mad because Lisa spent the weekend. No I dont find this fair. Shes my sister, am I supposed to turn her out??? No and I wont. She originally was gonna stay with Gabby. But she stayed here. No big deal. But I have been all but ignored unless a reason comes up to be spoken to since. I dont know why this shit cant just be layed to rest. IT WAS ALL MY FUCKIN FAULT!!!!!!! I am the one that said the stupid remark that neither can forgive. I am the one that caused all this shit. So be mad at me not each other! I get mad at her family but I dont make every one else uncomfortable! I am bout sick of the shit between Lisa and Kristy. Get mad at me guys and stop this shit. I am the one that is to blame. I had a bad enough week losing Pepper. Now I have to deal with Kristy being mad at me because Lisa stayed here. From now on I just wont have company since I guess I dont have that right? I didnt know that I couldnt. But since it causes a problem to have a family member around I wont have anyone else. And if I do I will go waste the fuckin money on a hotel. That way I dont have to deal with a best friend who wont talk to me and a sister who is uncomfortable making me feel like shit. My stress level over the last few days is sky rocketing! I dont know how much more I can take. This bull shit has to stop some where and I am dead serious about that. If it doesnt I am leaving. To where I will go, I dont know. But I cant deal with it anymore. Its gone on far long enough.