And it begins again

So the last time I posted, I was just starting Veterinary Technology classes. Since then, I have graduated college and now hold my Associates of Applied Science degree in Veterinary Technology and am now a licensed Veterinary Technician here in Nebraska! Go me, right? Yeah I love the job. I put a lot of work into it. I spent hours upon hours studying for the VTNE, or Veterinary Technology National Exam, or the boards. Most exciting thing in my life to this point!

Adam and I ended our 5.5 year relationship, now comes the fun of splitting assets and doing something about the house we bought together. Even more fun, right... Things were bad for a while. I feel horrible that I have once again hurt him. But truth of the matter is it just wasn't working and we weren't happy so why prolong it...

In August I went on vacation with 6 of my closest girl friends. We had a blast, Miami, Key West, Bahamas... We cant wait for our next cruise. Amazing. While there we did so many things and had so much fun. I still cant believe I actually got on that boat. Now comes the part that I think was the best. Just an hour or so after getting on the boat, I met some one wonderful, and proceeded to ignore him the whole trip. I was too scared to talk to him. Lets face it, the man is beautiful. There isn't a bad angle to look at him from. Which made him completely intimidating. Apparently I am just as intimidating if you ask him. Cause he spent the whole week trying to figure out how to talk to me with out chickening out. Anyways, the last night he came over and asked me to dance. He spent the evening dancing with my friends and me. We had a blast. I enjoyed the time I had with him. I smiled all night. Every time he touched me I felt an electricity I have never felt in my life. Before we all went back to our cabins for the night he asked my best friend if it was out of line to ask for my phone number, knowing that I had a boyfriend, even if the situation wasn't good. So when she said yes do it, he came over sat next to me and asked if he could keep in touch with me, call me, text me, anything. So I grabbed a napkin, wrote my name and phone number on it, hugged him and said good bye.

The next morning we ported in Miami again. When I woke up and turned on my phone for he for the first time in days, there was a set of text messages waiting. All from him. We talked all day, I mean that like from 7 in the morning to like 1130 or so that night. As the day went on my girl friends all picked on me because of how much I was smiling and seemed to be genuinely enjoying my conversation, apparently they had never seen me smile so much. Tell you how happy I had been?

Now its two months later, to the day, since we met. We talk every day and are planning trips to see each other. I cant wait to hear from him every day. He always finds a way to make me smile. No matter what is going on in my daily life, he amazingly says something to make me feel better. I at the very least get something early every morning to say good morning or tell me that I am missed. For instance, this morning he sent me a wake up text message that read "Morning babe..I feel like today's going to be a great day. The only thing that could make it better is if you were here. Hope you have a good day. Talk to you later." I get something sweet every day.

For the first time in my life I feel like something in this life is right. He makes me want things I never thought I wanted. Yes this scares me. A lot. The attraction I have to him, is huge. I have never felt anything like it. I go to bed every night and pray for this man, I smile every time some one says his name. I am giddy when my phone rings and his name is on it. I am like a teenager, but well the feeling is bigger. I have to say this is where i am confused. I met him two months ago, spent a few hours with him, some how I miss him. How is that possible? I care about him a lot. I cant imagine a world with out him. Again, that scares me.

The thing is I live in Nebraska, he is in DC. I can do my job anywhere, hes told where he has to be, and he loves his job. So if this works out, I could end up half way across the country. See he is a Marine so its not like he can just up and leave when he wants to. This is gonna be the most challenging relationship of my life, but I know that if we try we can make it work. Distance is the biggest enemy we have. Honestly that does not scare me at all. Above all, I know that I cant wait to see his beautiful face again. I cant wait to hold him, touch him, be with him. It so much more than a need to be intimate with some one. I crave his presence. How crazy do I sound?