Life has been slightly crazy lately. Shocked every one recently with how I ended things, with my favorite man in the world. Lets face it, hes amazing. I love him. But, isn't there always a but.... Yes the tale of Kevin and Amanda has a HUGE but, the distance started making me feel like I was holding my breath. Love sometimes, just doesn't conquer all. Maybe if I had full support of my family and friends on the hard days, I would have been able to hang on. But its just too much for me at the moment. I wonder now how we were so blissfully happy last year when we were together.
I hold with me now, a beautiful friend. I can be happy with that for as long as it is necessary, either until my poor heart heals again or until I wake up one day and I don't love him anymore. Thankfully this time we agreed on it, I guess no one could see this coming so I shocked all my friends.
Other than that, life is moving along at a normal pace. Applied for a promotion at work, see how that goes. Still hanging in there with my nursing job. I love that job. Makes me feel like a good person. My mom, brothers and step dad will be at my house for Thanksgiving. Time for the annual throw down for me and Matthew. Thats right folks, Texas A&M vs Texas. I see some steak in the future! Actually I see more of a pillow fight than anything. Both our teams look like warm shit this year. Should be interesting.
4 comments:
Not to be offensive but I never had the support of family and some friends with the guy I was with for three years and that wasn't what broke us up. 7 miles away or 7000 miles away it was still the same story he was never going to change. I loved him and he loved me, but that is not enough if one person doesn't want to fight for it. There is someone better than Kevin out there for you, it will just take time.
Kris, trust me, no offense taken. It took me a long time to see what we were doing. I love him. hes an amazing man and person, but the distance cant work. I was actually at peace letting go. Its not that he didnt fight for me, its that the Marine Corps comes first and thats ok with me, but I cant keep waiting. Some times love just isnt enough.
You are absolutely right and well you shouldn't have to wait. Someday you will find the man who will not wait to say that either.
I cant hate on him for not wanting to let go. But Then again I didnt either. Im happy with friends. We just dont talk like we did.
You are right, eventually I will find the right man. But I wont compare them.
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