Well this week has been very interesting. We had a million things going on at home, work and elsewhere. We went out to the rodeo on Friday. Now here's a big suprise, I am a huge rodeo fan. Ok if you know me, you know that is sarcastic. 1 I am from Texas, 2 I ride a horse regularly... Seriously I LOVE RODEO! So we went and got to see some of my favorites, Trevor Brazille, holy cow! Thats all I will say there, hes my favorite. But yeah. Then top off the rodeo with my all time favorite country singer and I am totally psyched. So after the rodeo Clay Walker gets on stage. We bought entrance on to the floor. So we were down in the dirt just feet from him... Im in heaven. Then he points at me! AHHH! Well through out his set he's throwing out his guitar picks! I totally caught one! Yes I am a dork, but I have loved this man since I was like 8 years old. So this was huge for me!
Then yesterday morning I am at the clinic pulling my nurse rotation for the week, and my phone goes off, I look down and it is my twitter account. I had sent a picture and put on it @ClayWalker, Have I mentioned I love you?!?!? Well when my phone buzzed it was him responding to me, it said I LOVE YOU TOO!! I was freaking out. May be the only good thing that happened all day yesterday.
We lost a patient right at the end of the day, for some odd reason this one was hard on me. I never get upset when we lose a patient. Hell if I did I would be a mess most shifts. I am kind of desensitized to it. But yesterday was bad. I balled my eyes out for about an hour. Then slept for like 5 hours, I was a total lump of crap all day after that. I swear I never got out of my pajamas after lunch. That pathetic.
Kevin and I have talked randomly through out the week. These have all been on him. If we talked its been at his pace and I will be honest Im good with that. Means hes trying. Its not an easy situation. I know everyone, save a few people, believe the two of us are stupid and just wasting our time with each other. I wish people understood that we love each other and dont know how to do this. He finally came right out and said the distance bothered him. Well Amanda can relocate! Duh! That was kind of what we had been talking about before anyways. Doesnt really matter, I long ago decided that I love the area, with or with out him, I am gonna be there one day.
Its not a decision that will be popular, but once the right job offer comes along again, I am out of here. My mother is ok with that. She says I need to be there to work on what I want and need out of life. She says I am happy when I am there and she wants to see me happy again. I love my mom. The cool part is one of my best friends from high school is getting stationed out there at the begining of the year, so I may already have a room mate when I do finally move. Veronica and I are both excited cause that means we will have some one and be in a freaking awesome place! So on with the job hunt!!!
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