I know that sometimes there are things I dont feel like I have the right to feel, I have thoughts that I dont have the right to think... But where do you draw that line. Who do you draw them for? Where does the line being crossed become ok, and with whom?
These are all thoughts I have had a lot lately. Why? Because I guess I have had a few of those thoughts I really feel like I shouldnt, and not because they are bad but because of who they are about... I dont really want to explain that due to speaking those words would make me feel like less of a friend and well just plain bad for feeling them. Not that the feelings are bad, or the thoughts even. They are good, but they arent allowed. Gosh that sounds confusing, now imagine it being in your mind.
I guess at some point your emotions run away with you. Lately I have been really quiet. Not to mention I haven't felt very well in a few days. I let stress, that shouldnt be happening, get to me, lowering my already barely there, immune system. Everyone says that I should relax, truth is I just dont know how to...
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Everything takes its own time. Just know you always have a friend thinking of you. And this is your place, so say whatever that needs to be said.
Yes it probably needs to be said but part of me wonders if it's just me transferring feelings from one person to another and that keeps my mouth shut
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