Well today I made a big step. I took down one of the two remaining pictures. I replaced it with one of me and my beloved Elyssa. I need to print out more pictures, but we move next week... So I havent yet.
My friend Ken says I should burn every picture I have. I wont do that though. Whats the point. I would still remember every thing, who needs pictures when they can access my memories?
I decided I will NEVER allow myself to sit around and cry over a man again, not over one who moved on so damn fast anyways. I am, from this point on, going to be the epitome of strong. If no one else sees it, I DONT GIVE A SHIT! I will prove once and for all, to myself, that I can do this and be happy. I dont need any man to make me happy. I have my girls. Thats all I need.
I may never get married, or have children, but damn it I will make other things happen in my own way. Just today one of my best friends and biggest supporters had a baby, which I am already in love with from half way across the country. I can love her babies and all my other friends kids. God will show me my path. I may not agree with him all the time but I will follow where he leads me.
Now lets see how long this new found strength lasts!
2 comments:
I like the sleek new blog as well. And it sound like you got the right attitude, even if you make a few missteps along the way you have your heart on the right path. I will always wish you the best. And remember you are not doing this alone.
Thank you. I know I'm still gonna have some rough days. I know now though that I will make it. It's just gonna take time to do it.
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