Life has been slightly crazy lately.  Shocked every one recently with how I ended things, with my favorite man in the world.  Lets face it, hes amazing.  I love him.  But, isn't there always a but....  Yes the tale of Kevin and Amanda has a HUGE but, the distance started making me feel like I was holding my breath.  Love sometimes, just doesn't conquer all.  Maybe if I had full support of my family and friends on the hard days, I would have been able to hang on.  But its just too much for me at the moment.  I wonder now how we were so blissfully happy last year when we were together. 

I hold with me now, a beautiful friend.  I can be happy with that for as long as it is necessary, either until my poor heart heals again or until I wake up one day and I don't love him anymore.  Thankfully this time we agreed on it, I guess no one could see this coming so I shocked all my friends. 

Other than that, life is moving along at a normal pace.  Applied for a promotion at work, see how that goes.  Still hanging in there with my nursing job.  I love that job.  Makes me feel like a good person.  My mom, brothers and step dad will be at my house for Thanksgiving. Time for the annual throw down for me and Matthew.  Thats right folks, Texas A&M vs Texas.  I see some steak in the future!  Actually I see more of a pillow fight than anything.  Both our teams look like warm shit this year.  Should be interesting.